tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-48524828654366702882024-02-02T14:43:06.472+08:00InvisibleMy utopiaFarhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.comBlogger333125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-30007804509609395132017-10-17T23:50:00.000+08:002017-10-17T23:50:29.373+08:00ChancesSalam & Hello,<br />
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There's moments during this infancy career life of mine that I feel a little bit devastated and disappointed and still feel lost. This due to a lot of reasons including external party and of course my dear self. Some of them even lose hope on us. I have come to a point that I feel so this is it? This is what working life is? And between what I expected when I first land the job and what I have experienced lately, it was not all fulfilling.<br />
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However, recently, my friends and I got the opportunity, chance to participate in an event. As some of you might know, events is my heartbeat. I would jump for it whenever I had the chance. So this time around, it wasn't the event that much that touched me, it was the opportunity given by someone to let us organize this event. To trust and give us space to grow and to prove ourselves that we can do it. To believe in us while we are in doubt about ourselves. That chance, that opportunity means a lot to me. It is the nurturing that we actually been longing for. May Allah bless her soul for helping us out, for giving us chance when everybody else punishes.Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-71467907559050032572017-03-31T23:32:00.001+08:002017-03-31T23:32:19.071+08:00When in doubt When in doubt, write.<br />
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Try it. You might writes your woes away.Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-84076772231381745402017-03-19T23:49:00.000+08:002017-03-20T00:25:26.921+08:00#first2017<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Assalamualaikum and Hello again everyone~!!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Second of all I would like to wish everyone a Happy 2017~!!! It's not too late yet compared to when i post last year X'D So this year i am better because it is only March so yeay me! Of course my new year's resolution is to write as much as possible (like every other year's resolution) but this time I am aiming for once a month post. So i can sum up what happen during the month and my blog is not dead and i can make myself happy by writing my blog again. It's been a good 7 years having this blog and i don't want it to go to nothing. It is a commitment that i made and i enjoy it and i love it still and it has a special place in my heart. I couldn't careless if not many people read it (is there any people read blog nowadays?) as long as i can write. There! Haha.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">And as for Instagram, I always felt overwhelmed after i scroll through. You know they say that it is all filtered and not as happy as they seem on it. But i didn't see the unhappy part so i can't lie to my brain. And not that im not happy seeing other people happy but i can't help compared myself to them and feel that you are not successful enough, rich enough or even CREATIVE enough or in summary you try to count your blessing but still wanting more. So that made me unhappy and even demotivated. I got distracted at work and constantly think I was not meant for this job, i don't like it and i was meant to be some artist painting on abstract piece for postcards and greetings card. Which I haven't done any of those because all this while i only scrolling for ideas but never really DID it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">So i logged out from both twitter and instagram. Just for a while because i feel that i feel demotivated at work because of all these and yes sadly i can't control how i react to them. Some people just can scroll through and without having any impact on their life (that's my elder sister). So by logging out i hope that i can focus on my current work (though in time i would like to work on something else) and do what i really want to do or love to do. If i still cant do that then maybe that is because of something else. Right now it is quite evident because i have more time to blog and spring clean my room. But i'm still on facebook but i think facebook it not as impactful or distrcting as twitter and ig for me. At least it is varied (in some way...hahaha). OMG! I feel old when i said that XD.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">I hope i can logged out as long as I possibly can. It's been only three or four days but it feels like forever. Until I learn how to deal with it, i think im better off without it so that i can focus on my work and my study. Oh the fidgety feeling i got when i always wants to check it. I caught myself wanting to check my phone every 2 minutes (see that's why i can't focus) and always reached out for my phone. My hands are just on auto-pilot. Just when i logged out twitter i feel that i'll be missing out on the news because my news source is that but i can just google it so no worries. Hahaha. I still youtubed though. Is youtube a social media? Can be distracting but no overwhelmed feelings. So okay... XD</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "helvetica neue" , "arial" , "helvetica" , sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">Without my main social media I hope that i can blog more, do art more or at least planning for it (I'm still learning how to plan things in life) because life before this is as smooth AF. I really and consciously feel that I have come to that challenging age where i really learn a lot and reflect back on myself and just might change me, change how behave and how i do things, appreciate people and just to embrace life with an open heart and mind. InsyaAllah.</span></div>
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I miss writing. I miss it a lot. Now, that I'm writing this I am very happy.
Very very contented. I have not been writing here for almost half a year. My
previous post was all sad. I was. I think that was my lowest moment in life.
But now I am okay. I am pretty much thankful to Allah things are getting better
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like to wish a Happy 2016! I know half of the year already past but hey, better
late than never ;P I think this time of the year is a great time to re-focus or
to refresh any of the new year's resolution that we had. So let's take this opportunity
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">So in January, I landed
myself a job. Alhamdulillah. And I was destined to befriend with bunch of
'crazy' people. We are under a management trainee program so we were sent for
this boot camp just the 10 of us and that's when we get close more than ever!
We are inseparable and we are actually surprised that we are very close and can
get along with each other okay. Work was okay. I don't deny that I have to look
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">In February, it's my
birthdaaaaayyyyy. Happy 24th to me. Alhamdulillah. I have grown up and life
have taught me what I have ought to learn and to the extent that I can bear. My
wishes have never change. I hope that I can be a better person than I am
before. I hope I can make a change (a better one of course) in somebody's life
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first time I involved in street feeding. To be honest I was scared because this
was the first time, going to the heart of KL giving out food to the homeless. I
don't know what kind of people I would encounter (other than the homeless) like
possible snatchers or 'flashers'. But our group is quite a number of people and
there are a number of guys and some of my friends, if I may, are experienced
street feeders, so I feel safe. I was stricken with sympathy. So many
'development' but still so many homeless and poor people. Street feeding is a
noble initiative to help these people but I honestly think that this problem
should be encounter at root cause. We help but we don't exactly solve the
problem. But at this point I was glad I could at least help and I wish I can
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party! There's like 3 birthday celebrations altogether. My Dad is also an April
baby so I can't complain. Hahaha. Apart from parties, I have also attended
first concert ever in my life by 3 legendary performers - Ramli Sarip, Jamal
Abdilah and M. Nasir. Wuhoooo~!!!! Awesomeness! One of my favorite songs is
Syair Laila Majnun. Such a poetry... :) Another thing that makes April awesome
is that I start to emceeing again! Yeay me ~ ~ ~ :) and I am glad know I've
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finally take my first annual leave. Haha. I traveled down south to Johor to
visit a dear friend of mine. On top of that, I went to Legoland! (wishlist
crossed) I rode the roller coasters because that's, I think, the only thing for
adults to enjoy themselves there - I had to ride okay! The ticket cost me a
fortune and that's big enough motivation for me to overcome my fear of height
X(. If you didn't bring any children with you and you don't ride the roller
coaster, you'll probably end up just taking photos or shopping...haha. I went
to Educity Nusajaya. The place was humongous! I fell in love with that place
already and I of course I visited MMU there! Not much to see but I don't know,
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">And here comes June... month of Ramadan is here :) It's a good thing that Ramadan is here mid-year. As I mentioned in earlier paragraph, middle of the year is for us to refresh and re-focus. I would like to encourage all people (and me myself) to do likewise in the month of Ramadan, during mid-year to look into ourselves, refresh and refocus whatever aim that we have for the year and also to do that with our ibadah. May Allah bless us in this celebrated month and achieve whatever goals that we have set ourselves to achieve this year, insyaAllah.</span></div>
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Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-8431934615694936252015-12-24T00:18:00.001+08:002015-12-24T00:18:36.520+08:00Warts and all <br />
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You really don't know 'warts' until some point in a relationship. It is really ugly. Sometimes you can barely handle it. I think I've been in 'romantic' stage all this while. Then grad happened. No, distance comes first. Then plenty of leisure time (unemployment), that my evil mind has most of the time take over. And then, things got messed up. I finally see 'warts'. It is ugly and most of the time I can barely handle it. That even demotivate me further. But you just don't leave when things got bitter right? So currently I still trying to pour some sugar in, both of us.</div>
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I just wish I don't complicate things, no second thoughts like I always have in almost everything and got me on my nerve. At the same time I don't want to be upset with myself, thinking negative about me all the time. I want to accept my weaknesses, embrace it dearly and then tell them to go. Dang, it's really hard... I wish I don't look at things too far ahead and try 'connect the dots' when they are barely there. There are no dots, just a few. And it's not the time for me to look backward just yet. Calling for guts.</div>
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F.Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-82997346622201608362015-11-29T23:46:00.001+08:002015-11-29T23:46:10.301+08:00I never really like it didn't I...?Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-1348841729499242652015-11-29T23:42:00.003+08:002015-11-29T23:47:03.122+08:00Patience Is Virtue But of course every now and then I feel like crying (I cried). I snapped. Every now and then I wish I knew. I wish I have the guts.<br />
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It's easier to avoid it than to think about it. But thinking sometime, it goes in circle or hit a dead end. Sometimes thinking (too much or too ahead) doesn't solve. <span style="font-size: xx-small;">i'm tired.</span><br />
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InsyaAllah. Amiiin.<br />
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Love,<br />
F.Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-63189013545210519942015-11-26T00:46:00.001+08:002015-11-29T23:43:31.338+08:00Congratulations! (Long post. You got time? Cool.)I would like to congratulate myself on my Convocation recently. To mama and abah also. I made it finally! Alhamdulillah. After 5 years of hardship and ranting and ups and downs my university life has finally come to the end. *there's something in my eyes*. Well, it is always a mixed feeling. I am glad that I made it through but at the same time, I am still going to miss my student life. 5 years went so fast. As long as I can remember, I still have not done my tutorials properly. It's either I did it at the eleventh hour or I can never get it right. So much to do but so little time. I think that it was some sort of motto I live in during uni days. HAHAHA. Of course nobody else was to blame except for me. I get myself busy with co-curricular activities. Hence, the race against time. I also have this resolution of getting As for my subject and study as hard and as smart as I can so that I can improve my pointer when it comes to new semester. Yeap as you have guessed and I have guessed when it comes in the middle of the semester, I can only be thankful if I pass all the subjects at the end of the sem. Getting As would be a bonus. HAHAHA. I have my regrets but I am thankful for so much other things in my life.<br />
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My participation in co-curricular activities in one of the things that I am happy with. I always enjoy life outside classroom. Heeee. I remember my mom told me I don't want to do my homework at the age of 7 (if I'm not wrong) because I told her I am smart and I already know that. Well, I have to write my ABCs repeatedly when I already know my ABCs since I was 3. Make sense why I don't want to do my homework yes? But in Uni case, I told myself that I can only love and do Accounting that much and any extra work done would be pointless because I will still not be able to score more. Sometimes I want to beat myself so hard because I have limited myself. But anyhow, that was the decision I made. So I have to live with it. SO, back to co-curricular activities, Sekretariat Sekolah@MMU was my platform to get into all the event management things. I have learnt a lot from here - teamwork, friendship, relationship - you name it. Though I do not participate in it anymore, it is still dear to me. All the best to the legacy.<br />
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I wish all those who graduated best in career and life. And for my friends hope that we keep in touch and see you soon. InsyaAllah.<br />
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Love,<br />
Farhana.Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-24465326540555479322015-11-25T23:51:00.002+08:002015-11-25T23:51:21.716+08:00I just want to write everything but it's all kinda choppy. Gaahhhh.. Come back writing skills! I need ya.Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-7097856170805297422015-10-22T14:28:00.001+08:002015-10-22T14:28:31.250+08:00Peace Maybe him,<br />
Maybe her,<br />
Maybe the night,<br />
Maybe the talk,<br />
Maybe bowling,<br />
Maybe the room,<br />
Maybe the museum,<br />
Maybe the meatball,<br />
Maybe volleyball,<br />
Maybe the uptown,<br />
Maybe the coloring book,<br />
Maybe as spectators,<br />
Maybe Haagen-Dazs,<br />
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Whatever it may be, i thank God for bestowing me with peace within my heart.<br />
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or Maybe it's just Cyber.Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-17729522169230835072015-08-18T00:31:00.003+08:002015-08-18T00:31:45.257+08:00Howdy Do?Heeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy there :) Hugs and kisses. I miss this. Long time no?<br />
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I HAVE to do this. I have to write, I have to blog. I feel my writing skill has gone really bad. It's hard for me to construct a proper sentence. I've mentioned this before right? I feel that the words are clogged inside my head and my fingers freeze when I wanted to write them because it's HARD~!!! Anyways here's to a new start. Hopefully I'll be consistent. Lol. Hmmm... So what's up?<br />
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I have finally graduated after 5 struggling years in Uni. Yeay me :) What? Wait... Struggling ke? Hahaha... Yes of course! But it was fun though. Although I have experienced a little bit of bitterness every now and then, it was normal peeps. Life is full of ups and downs right? Now I am currently looking for jobs. Hope that I get lucky ;)<br />
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So both of my younger sister and brother has all grown up. One is taller than me but me don't care that much because I am tall (enough). I still somehow maintained my weight though. Still underweight. 5 years and still in my 40s. I think I can hardly do anything about it. My brother, I expect him to be taller than me and I'm not surprised if it is in a few months. He is currently in Perlis, memorizing the holy Quran at one of tahfiz schools there. He feels that our education system is not challenging enough and hence, he seeks adventure there. My younger sister is going to continue her study in Uni soon. Awww... My younger siblings are all grown up and I want to cry now. May Allah ease their journey obtaining knowledge. My one and only older sister is currently working in KL in a development company. It's everything that she wants from a company. Lucky her!<br />
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So my parents are awesome as always. Getting older but still blessed with good health and happy marriage. Alhamdulillah :) And... they keep asking me to find work. Hahaha. It's not that I'm not finding one. But really slowly. Hey I went to career fair, if that wasn't good enough. I want to stay at home for a longer time since I was so busy with exams, assignment and event during the sem break. So yeah... I'm here mom and dad, if you need me! After this Im going out again ;) So better use me while I'm available ;P<br />
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Me and Khairul, we are boring and awesome as always. We are currently, if you may, in a long distance relationship (Subang Jaya - Cyberjaya) ;P. Got to see each other at least once a week or whenever we wanted to. Lol. He's currently doing his fyp and since I'm still looking for jobs, weekdays are still available for meet up. Miss seeing him everyday though. Friends are great. Some of them already landed a job. We still contact through Whatsapp but catch up sesh is kinda hard and only during weekends. But we gonna see each other during convocation sooonn :)<br />
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So that's about it for now. I know it's waaaayyyy to late but I would like to wish Muslims around the world happy Eid ul Fitri. May Allah bless us always.<br />
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Last but not least, I would like to pat myself on the back for typing this whole new post. :) More are coming insyaAllah.<br />
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Love,<br />
F.<br />
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<br />Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-63138368282274842112015-01-01T00:13:00.001+08:002015-01-01T00:13:23.231+08:00Happy New Year!!!Omg I just found myself a new year resolution. Write more in blog! That's it. I hope I can do it. My writing sucks nowadays. I think it is due to a lot of tweeting and facebooking. You only have to write short sentence. You don't have to think so much about the sentence structure.<br />
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So okay! All the best to me. May Allah ease and may my writing be beneficial to everyone that reads it insyaAllah.<br />
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Love,<br />
Farhana :)<br />
<br />Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-8889940627409139292014-11-04T12:15:00.000+08:002014-11-04T12:15:19.694+08:00Star Gazing I was sitting alone,<br />
in the bus<br />
Looking outside the window<br />
Star gazing<br />
Tracing 'em, connect 'em<br />
Of shining dots, to create meaning<br />
Then you came<br />
Not to be bothered by stars<br />
But tracing still<br />
The lines of my foot<br />
To give meaning<br />
Understood and then we lost<br />
And let the star gazeFarhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-88571003186057966912014-09-18T23:38:00.000+08:002014-09-18T23:38:10.847+08:00This is love Ain't it? Oh if I can only hug this virtual thing tightly, I would. I miss blogging big time! I can feel my heart is blooming. It's like falling in love all over again :)Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-7318193951044055852014-03-23T22:44:00.000+08:002014-03-23T22:46:13.945+08:00Yeayers!Assalamualaikum and hey hey hey :)<br />
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Today is Sunday and tomorrow is Monday. Blerghhh... Have to go to work. But I don't have any pending work for the weekend.. Yeay! :) so as I mentioned I'm going to share with you some stories with you.<br />
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So recently, I mean last year I got A LOT of opportunities to be an emcee for events. I'm very very very very very very happy when emceeing. Dari dulu memang suka mengacara ni. I remembered when I was small, dekat Disney channel ada this show I can't remember the name but Azura jadi pengacara with 3 other people. I always love that show. So dulu ada buat video sendiri interview adik2 and kakak sendiri for that show kononnya. And I always love Majalah 3 at TV3. Memang pernah bercita-cita2 la untuk jd pengacara Majalah 3. Be it yang dekat studio or yang jalan2 cari content for the program. But that remains that for a while.<br />
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So as I mentioned, dekat sekolah pun pernah jadi pengacara for a few times. But lepas tu macam terkubur jap cita2 tu. Maybe sebab masuk you ambil accounting and then I have to struggle with it and the fact that I take up that course not on my own will but then again I don't know or I can't decide what I want to be so yeah... confusion. So last year emceeing for a few events was super awesome. It feels like dream came true. Memang rasa nervous before start event. But I enjoy every second of it. So enough with the talk, picture time~!!! :)<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>First and Grandest :) with experienced Rishi<br /></i></span></td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>Ihya' Ramadan Program organized by Ministry of Education Malaysia.<br /><span style="font-size: xx-small;">Credit to the photographer. No copyright infringement intended.</span> </i></span></td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>Piala Tun Dr. Siti Hasmah 2014. With Im, the highschool mate :)</i></span></td></tr>
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<i><span style="font-size: large;">And that ladies and gentlemen, my happy moments</span></i></div>
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<i>No dreams are too big, no dreamers are too small. </i></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">p/s: I am looking forward to be emcee for events. I'm enthusiastic and committed. If you want to see it for yourself, please do not hesitate to drop an email at farhana_262@yahoo.com.sg :) </span>Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-78398194291646128472014-02-11T20:22:00.001+08:002014-02-11T20:22:22.871+08:00Yes, taking you for granted...I only write a post when my FINAL exam has arrived :D Miss writing (typical). I'm just amazed how the mundane of final exam, makes me put enough effort to log in here and type something, arrange sentences and post it. I really have A LOT and lots and lots and lots and lots of things to write here. About me emceeing, about my cat and life basically. Yeah so okay, I see you soon.<br />
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Regards,<br />
FSA<br />
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<i><span style="font-size: x-small;">p/s: wish me luck</span></i>Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-54730184706013683832013-10-18T11:06:00.001+08:002013-10-18T11:14:07.821+08:00When it only amount to this I don't really like having dispute with people. I don't like to pick up fight with anyone except Khairul. Hahaha. Joke. I don't like it now more because it will hurt my jaw every time I think of the moment I get hurt with people's remarks or what they have done or not done to me. Yes, hurt my jaw. Rasa lenguh. Because I often clinch my teeth when I'm stress. Thinking of it making me stress and... woa wait! Im going in circle explaining... Never mind. IT's just HURT physically and mentally. Period.<br />
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What is more frustrating is that the urge want to stand up for myself or to hurt them back only amount to this: writing in blog which not that those people follow me or read my blog. Is there anyone still reading my blog? Haha. It's like I'm scolding my teddy bear and the only thing he do is keep smiling and all those yelling and screaming and explaining to him only gives me minimal satisfaction. Ouh how I love to scream out those foul words to them and hurt them back. But then again, I don't like having dispute with people. What would happen to my image if I responded like a mad person. No I don't like it either. And even if I would explain it in a well manner, things not going to be the same again. I'm afraid of jeopardizing relationship I guess. Hmmm... And the other thing that I usually did was told Khairul about it. I told him the exact words I'm going to said to the person I'm discontent with - if i'm ever going to tell.<br />
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So, I just can't really you know fight back. Maybe because I think the outcome will always be negative. If the outcome is positive would it be a waste not to response back. I did response. But very diplomatically.<br />
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So here it goes:<br />
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1) Please open your eyes and heart and know me better. ;) You'll be glad that I'm not the one that cares (to those kind of thing). I'm not kepoci. Seriously, I have a humongous number of things to do that makes me happy rather then search for stories to tell. The fact that I DON'T EVEN tell stories. I only joke around with you and it seems to me that you're the filler and I just play along, the killer, the puncher. Masih diplomatik. Haha. My policy is if people want to tell me anything I listen and JUST listen. If people don't want to share their stories, even if I know about it briefly, I won't force them to tell. It's their right to remain silence about it. Maybe before you point out flaws to other people, you can reflect your self first. Sometimes the root to the problem is you yourself :)<br />
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2) The previous sem is hard and challenging and I can assure you that I really have worked for it. For me the result is satisfying, more than I expected. Ouh if you could only share the fear with me. I know it's NOT A LOT well for you. Don't you feel like asking how is it for me? For me it's A LOT. A simple encouraging remarks would do. And I don't really ask for rewards. Things. If you want to give that really all up to you. I'm not asking. I only ask for meaningful support. That's it. I'm simple like that and you guys more than any other person knows that. Love you guys, nevertheless.<br />
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3) Please don't mind I'm not eating with you, accompany you every where, or not doing something with you. I'm like this. I move fast and independent. I don't want people to follow me and I can't stick to other people's schedule because I have a plan of my own. If you want me you then have to keep up. Well, that sounds harsh no? Let's just say that I have my own plan. Yes, I'm aware of the boyfriend issue. I would love each and every one of you to have your love ones nearby. And and and tell me if you don't want to see him everyday when he's just next door, okay? Apart from that, I will <strike>try</strike> do my best to spend time with you guys okay? ^.^v<br />
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And sadly, it only amount to this.<br />
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Fana Ayam.Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-85830491579449914332013-10-18T00:09:00.001+08:002013-10-18T00:09:33.483+08:00As-Sami'Don't you just feel relief and reassured every time as you know there is As-Sami' - the Hearer of all.<div>
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When nobody wants to listen to you, you know there's always Him to listen to your every prayer and complains, your wish and basically everything. He always listen. Fret not my friends.</div>
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So pour your hearts out to Him. He will listen as Allah is As-Sami' and Al-Alim - the Knower of all. </div>
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Fana :)</div>
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And Alhamdulillah for the good that He bestowed me today. </div>
Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-40740342698801604532013-10-13T20:51:00.001+08:002013-10-13T20:51:18.313+08:00Haaaa lidaaaayyyyyYeppie :) 3 weeks holiday. Rasa MMU macam generous pulak bagi cuti banyak2..hewhew :3 Anyways, the first week dah habis sebab join event. Same old same old yet special Sekolah@MMU. This time dekat Kelantan. Akhirnya, saya dah conquer satu peninsular setelah 21 tahun hidup di bumi Malaysia ni. Next stop Sarawak.<br />
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Cadangnya sekarang nak lipat kain. Sambil tengok movie/pasang lagu kat laptop. Tapi kebiasaan la kan kalau bukak laptop tu susah nak move on buat benda lain. So end up check out fb/twitter yang dah setahu... sehari je tak bukak. lama la jugak tu kan sebab during semester almost 24 hours bukak laptop study/assignment punya pasai. Lepas tu blogging sbb dah lama tak blog. I can never really function when there is people around. Sometimes. So tak jadi lipat kain. Esok je la jawabnya... Esok kena:<br />
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Beli groceries<br />
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Sort and buang buku<br />
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Cakap pasal buku, baru sekarang boleh lepas rindu baca novel. I love my sweet sweet sweet time cuddling with books (bukan buku teks). Sebab rindu ni la habis tergendala all the house chores. Rindu sangat. So say whatever to house chores... Hahaha. Cuti ni habis satu novel pun okay. Dari bila entah asyik bukak novel baru... baca separuh jalan lepas tu tinggal. and then repeat. So azam cuti ni habis kan novel. Sebuah je... I miss painting, sketching as well :/ Tapi tak bawak balik barang2 pun sebab tau tak kan sempat punya buat di rumah. So bawak balik my 'inspire' spiral notebook tu je and a pen.<br />
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Masa lain plan nak buat spring cleaning. PLAN. In sha Allah buat. Just clean almari buku je. So yeah. No biggie. Tapi takut distracted pulak. Anyways, tadi saya dapat idea nak buat notebooks. mcm vintage like note book. :3 yeay me. kita tgk nnt berhasil ke tak. tak sabar.<br />
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Okay nak pi tidoq kan adik2. Walaupun dah besar still kena teman kan tido. So what I do usually saya akan ceritakan kisah Pak Musang and Mak Ayam. Classic. Tak tau korang tahu ke tak. The same story everytime diorang nak tido. Mcm bonding session sebelum tido. Walaupun cerita yang sama saya ubah sikit2 ikut keadaan semasa. im cool liddat ^.^v<br />
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Ok peeps. Toodles :3Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-50391675771877758152013-08-29T23:33:00.004+08:002013-08-29T23:33:53.759+08:00RinduI miss writing here. Nothing about factual matters but the only fact that remains are my feelings and thoughts. :'( It is always race against time.Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-36796503611365377102013-07-12T07:40:00.001+08:002013-07-12T07:40:47.006+08:00No pressure peopleAssalamualaikum and hello :)<br />
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It's been a long time no? Happy Ramadan to all muslims :) May this Ramadan bring barakah to all of you. Amin~<br />
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Yeah, so... how do I start? It's all in my head but it is kinda hard to put it in sentence. Actually I do have the sentence in my head - the main points. It's just the introduction part. We always have problem with introduction right? So, never mind, here we go. So recently I realized (just realized) that I have been under a lot of pressure. I have no time for 'trivia' stuff - the fact that they are essential part of me like blogging and doing art stuff. I have to keep up with my own schedule. I somehow have A LOT of things to do. I barely had time for myself. So I forgive myself for not having time doing the fun things because I 'don't have' time and I take 6 subjects for this semester so I have to keep up. Ironically, not very much 'things' can be settled on time. Since, time is insufficient for me. I think I have manage time well but it was not fruitful. I don't know. I'm not sure where it went wrong and I don't even want to know the reason - well, not yet, not now. So yeah that makes a part of my stress life.<br />
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Recently (also) I've disappointed because things doesn't turn out to my favor. I've been working for that 'thing' all my heart out - it makes to my top priority. It's definitely my passion, my stage. I believe I am the best thespian on stage and best player on the field. But, as I mentioned things didn't happen the way that I want it to be. I am disappointed, defeated. I know I'm the best (waaahhh... confident gitew) but just not my rezeqi I guess. Mungkin kena reflect diri sendiri balik. Confident tu penting tapi over-confident tu tak bagus. I tend to look down on poeple. Rasanya sebab buat kerje tak ikhlas kot. Niat tak betulkan... tu la jadinya. Sebab nak tunjukkan kat orang yang kita ni bagus. Everything is competition. Then, the EGO comes in. I kinda actually stop having fun to prove myself worthy. Aduh, stress -.-" Lupa pulak you can never satisfy people. And nothing is certain. So yeah, tersentak jap.. sentak ye bukan sentap. It's okay to expect something but if it doesn't turn out like how you want it to be DON'T DESPAIR. Because something better might awaits you. Lain kali jangan sombong dan takbur. Faham adik2? Buat kerja biar ikhlas dan haraplah ganjaram dari Allah dan bersangka baiklah selalu. So pengajaran for me I guess.<br />
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So, I kinda take everything slowly now. Tak nak tamak sangat. Hahaha... But I still need to rush things though but not too rush. I'll take my time appreciating small things that give me significant comforts. I really want to enjoy things that need to be done and I will. Kalau nampak saya stress cakap kat saya 'GO GET A LIFE!' pastu simbah air. Tapi kalau nak kena tumbuk buat la... hahah. Joking! But the simbah air part tu tak yah buat la.<br />
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So, yeah that's about it. Sorry ayat berterabur. Lama dah tak mengarang. Selalu tulis essay je for assignment. Nak buat ayat mudah pun tak reti dah. Huhu. Next post in sha Allah pasal kucing ^._.^ me love cat.<br />
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Until then, see ya in the next post.<br />
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Regards,<br />
Farhana<br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: x-large;">Hey I'm still here. Just drop by to say hello. I'll be writing again soon :)</span></div>
Farhana Shaiful Anwar http://www.blogger.com/profile/16357903084327110844noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4852482865436670288.post-25152761689066964512013-04-30T13:17:00.001+08:002013-04-30T13:25:28.394+08:00Stop stopingSalam and hello everyone.<br />
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Sitting here on my 'bed' - my travelling mat and typing this. My comforting moment would be when I Imagine or for real sitting comfortably in a couch, my hair tied up into a bun and the fringe decorate my forehead, touches the frame of my spectacle. With my favorite book cupped in my hands. I feel geeky and cute already :P Accompanied by a mug of hot chocolate. Very winter-ish. I enjoy letting my thoughts have their own way for a while, let my imagination running wild.When I do this recently, with no book in my hands, just lie down staring at the wall, a thought came to me that what's really stopping you from doing something is you yourself. </div>
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Take me for example. Last two weeks I have given a chance to be an emcee for a grand award giving ceremony. As I mentioned in previous post, I have been longing to be the emcee for the ceremony since I attended the last year award giving ceremony. So this year, it's like a dream comes true. I got the offer. But at first I hesitant (can you believe that?). I've been wanting it for so long and I hesitated. Annoying much. Reason being, it's far too late (not sure for what). I got the offer 4 days before the event day. I even said to a friend that I readily to give up the offer because it is far too late to... be prepared I guess. And plus I don't have appropriate dress to wear. So yeah I guess, 4 days is not enough for me to find the right dress. Pfft. Diva much. Hahaha. But yeah, because I have another event in the same week, so I have to be at the grand hall for rehearsal. So no time for me to search for the right dress. Yeah, I have to be there all the time and no time to go anywhere because I am too dedicated (read with sarcasm)...lol. In short, I'm still thinking about the offer but I'm ready to give up. I really have that problem of wanting something so much and in the end, when I can get that thing, I give it up. Problem much. Much much.<br />
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But then, I talked this over with my sweetheart. He said that not to worry about the dress and he said that I have that thing in me, being an emcee. And yes I normally doubted myself. He reminds me that I wanted this so much since last year and don't let this petty things get in a way or I will regret for giving it up. He said, we will find time to find the right dress for the ceremony. And we did. And my mom & dad drive all the way from Subang to deliver her gold skirt for me to wear for the ceremony. My sayang also mentioned, don't be afraid of screwing things up (not badly) just normal mistake for a first timer like me and don't be hard on yourself if screws happens...Haha. Kind of first time for me for emceeing big event like this in university. I used to be emcee at high school for quite a number of events; Teacher's Day and that sorts. In the end, I take up the offer. And so there was I on Friday evening at the grand hall, again, for rehearsal. So I met my emcee partner and I started to feel inferior. I saw him last year and he was good. He has this big afro hair and I think that's an extra feature to appear more charismatic and firendly.I don't really have 'extra feature' and I am so thin I'm afraid that they might confuse me with a mic stand during the ceremony...lol. Exegerate much. I get nervous during the rehearsal, tongue tied so people keep asking me to relax. But they are making me more nervous. :S<br />
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So that night, I freaked out a little. Okay, I cried over the phone with my sayang and yeah I was sad because of something else too. I wanted to follow my parents to Australia for my sister graduation. So I cried. And I think the shawl doesn't match with the skirt. I feel inferior because I'm not good as my emcee partner. So I'm afraid I ruined the ceremony. Worries much. In my own Malay term I called this as 'serabut' which literally means messy but for me it means there's a lot of things that I'm thinking of and then I worry too much. Sayang said calm down, and I'm thinking too much. If my emcee partner is good then get advice or tips from him how to be a good emcee and observe him, learn from him. And so, I took the advice but still worried a little. So Saturday comes; day, rehearsal, night, the ceremony commence. And Alhamdulillah I did pretty well - I give myself 3 out of 5 stars. Some said that I did pretty well as a first timer :3. And my shawl suits the skirt and I did not end up wearing all black with gold shawl. I did my own make-up, fyi :3 In the end, interesting experience, dreams come true, not give up the thing that I wanted so much. Self enrichment. It really boost my confidence to try new things.<br />
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To point out, whatever my sweetheart says to me; don't give up, don't let challenges bring you down and all that sort is something that I know, something that I can think of. Maybe all I need is some sort of reassurance and support so that I won't stop myself from doing what I really long to do and this is what I want and I must work for it and it is not impossible. I think that's a function of the ones you love. They support, advice, motivate and even scold you to make it a better person, to help you to achieve your dream. So here I would like once again to thank all individuals that giving me support and especially to my sayang. HOW on earth you can be soooo optimistic? It's annoying sometimes. If it wasn't for you I might be sitting there at the dinner table still wishing that I am the one emceeing the ceremony. So thank you and love you :)<br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><i>I put your picture in my blog so BE PROUD now... hahaha</i></span></div>
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