Chances

Salam & Hello,

There's moments during this infancy career life of mine that I feel a little bit devastated and disappointed and still feel lost. This due to a lot of reasons including external party and of course my dear self. Some of them even lose hope on us. I have come to a point that I feel so this is it? This is what working life is? And between what I expected when I first land the job and what I have experienced lately, it was not all fulfilling.

However, recently, my friends and I got the opportunity, chance to participate in an event. As some of you might know, events is my heartbeat. I would jump for it whenever I had the chance. So this time around, it wasn't the event that much that touched me, it was the opportunity given by someone to let us organize this event. To trust and give us space to grow and to prove ourselves that we can do it. To believe in us while we are in doubt about ourselves. That chance, that opportunity means a lot to me. It is the nurturing that we actually been longing for. May Allah bless her soul for helping us out, for giving us chance when everybody else punishes.

#first2017

Assalamualaikum and Hello again everyone~!!!

Hahaha... The last time i wrote a post was mid-last year. But i do write a few more, it's just that i didn't post it. It was some heart-pouring thing where common sense are nowhere to be seen. Hahaha. But I'm okay now. Well at least for NOW. I hope i'm going to be okay for the rest of the year. So here I am indulging in my passion again. Typing, writing, posting or whatever :).

Second of all I would like to wish everyone a Happy 2017~!!! It's not too late yet compared to when i post last year X'D So this year i am better because it is only March so yeay me! Of course my new year's resolution is to write as much as possible (like every other year's resolution) but this time I am aiming for once a month post. So i can sum up what happen during the month and my blog is not dead and i can make myself happy by writing my blog again. It's been a good 7 years having this blog and i don't want it to go to nothing. It is a commitment that i made and i enjoy it and i love it still and it has a special place in my heart. I couldn't careless if not many people read it (is there any people read blog nowadays?) as long as i can write. There! Haha.

I've been thinking about plan writing this post and a few post for a long time now. But that remains that. It's just in my head. I was busy with work or something else. Or maybe it's just really i don't set a time to do it (plan failure alert!). I'm half blaming social media for this...Hahaha. Because I was so distracted by it and I couldn't help myself checking it frequently and didn't really do what I wish/plan to do because half of my time im on social media and other half is eat, sleep, work, shower and all that. Am I addicted to it? Probably just minor XD but the fact that i can't have control over my emotion after i'm browsing it just so disappointing.

I am mostly active on Twitter and Instagram and I always felt disturbed after scrolling down Twitter because sometimes it's just too negative for me because people are hating on each other, bashing people for a small thing and people make a joke out of something serious and vice versa (this is particularly for Malaysian Twitter community though I think anywhere else are just as same) and gosh people looovveeee, just loooovvveee, big capital L Loveee to give their opinion on things. Some are just "experts" on everything and must give opinion on everything and their misplaced sarcasm on issues. Well please save 'em for something that needs your sarcasm. You are not being cool being sarcastic all the time. Sometimes it's just annoying. Geez.

And as for Instagram, I always felt overwhelmed after i scroll through. You know they say that it is all filtered and not as happy as they seem on it. But i didn't see the unhappy part so i can't lie to my brain. And not that im not happy seeing other people happy but i can't help compared myself to them and feel that you are not successful enough, rich enough or even CREATIVE enough or in summary you try to count your blessing but still wanting more. So that made me unhappy and even demotivated. I got distracted at work and constantly think I was not meant for this job, i don't like it and i was meant to be some artist painting on abstract piece for postcards and greetings card. Which I haven't done any of those because all this while i only scrolling for ideas but never really DID it.

So i logged out from both twitter and instagram. Just for a while because i feel that i feel demotivated at work because of all these and yes sadly i can't control how i react to them. Some people just can scroll through and without having any impact on their life (that's my elder sister). So by logging out i hope that i can focus on my current work (though in time i would like to work on something else) and do what i really want to do or love to do. If i still cant do that then maybe that is because of something else. Right now it is quite evident because i have more time to blog and spring clean my room. But i'm still on facebook but i think facebook it not as impactful or distrcting as twitter and ig for me. At least it is varied (in some way...hahaha). OMG! I feel old when i said that XD.

I hope i can logged out as long as I possibly can. It's been only three or four days but it feels like forever. Until I learn how to deal with it, i think im better off without it so that i can focus on my work and my study. Oh the fidgety feeling i got when i always wants to check it. I caught myself wanting to check my phone every 2 minutes (see that's why i can't focus) and always reached out for my phone. My hands are just on auto-pilot. Just when i logged out twitter i feel that i'll be missing out on the news because my news source is that but i can just google it so no worries. Hahaha. I still youtubed though. Is youtube a social media? Can be distracting but no overwhelmed feelings. So okay... XD

Without my main social media I hope that i can blog more, do art more or at least planning for it (I'm still learning how to plan things in life) because life before this is as smooth AF. I really and consciously feel that I have come to that challenging age where i really learn a lot and reflect back on myself and just might change me, change how behave and how i do things, appreciate people and just to embrace life with an open heart and mind. InsyaAllah.

This very moment of typing this makes me so happy and it is satisfying feeling of accomplishment.

I hope and wish and pray I can do more of this.

Best Regards,

F.

Yeayers!

Assalamualaikum and hey hey hey :)

Today is Sunday and tomorrow is Monday. Blerghhh... Have to go to work. But I don't have any pending work for the weekend.. Yeay! :) so as I mentioned I'm going to share with you some stories with you.

So recently, I mean last year I got A LOT of opportunities to be an emcee for events. I'm very very very very very very happy when emceeing. Dari dulu memang suka mengacara ni. I remembered when I was small, dekat Disney channel ada this show I can't remember the name but Azura jadi pengacara with 3 other people. I always love that show. So dulu ada buat video sendiri interview adik2 and kakak sendiri for that show kononnya. And I always love Majalah 3 at TV3. Memang pernah bercita-cita2 la untuk jd pengacara Majalah 3. Be it yang dekat studio or yang jalan2 cari content for the program. But that remains that for a while.

So as I mentioned, dekat sekolah pun pernah jadi pengacara for a few times. But lepas tu macam terkubur jap cita2 tu. Maybe sebab masuk you ambil accounting and then I have to struggle with it and the fact that I take up that course not on my own will but then again I don't know or I can't decide what I want to be so yeah... confusion. So last year emceeing for a few events was super awesome. It feels like dream came true. Memang rasa nervous before start event. But I enjoy every second of it. So enough with the talk, picture time~!!! :)

First and Grandest :) with experienced Rishi

Ihya' Ramadan Program organized by Ministry of Education Malaysia.
Credit to the photographer. No copyright infringement intended. 

Convofest '13 Opening Ceremony

Power Transition Ceremony (SRC)

Piala Tun Dr. Siti Hasmah 2014. With Im, the highschool mate :)

Takde gambar betul time emcee. T@MU's Take 7

Majlis Perhimpunan Agung Tahunan (MAPAT)/ AGM Sekretariat Sekolah@MMU
(both pictures)

And that ladies and gentlemen, my happy moments

No dreams are too big, no dreamers are too small. 

p/s: I am looking forward to be emcee for events. I'm enthusiastic and committed. If you want to see it for yourself, please do not hesitate to drop an email at farhana_262@yahoo.com.sg :) 

Haaaa lidaaaayyyyy

Yeppie :) 3 weeks holiday. Rasa MMU macam generous pulak bagi cuti banyak2..hewhew :3 Anyways, the first week dah habis sebab join event. Same old same old yet special Sekolah@MMU. This time dekat Kelantan. Akhirnya, saya dah conquer satu peninsular setelah 21 tahun hidup di bumi Malaysia ni. Next stop Sarawak.

Cadangnya sekarang nak lipat kain. Sambil tengok movie/pasang lagu kat laptop. Tapi kebiasaan la kan kalau bukak laptop tu susah nak move on buat benda lain. So end up check out fb/twitter yang dah setahu... sehari je tak bukak. lama la jugak tu kan sebab during semester almost 24 hours bukak laptop study/assignment punya pasai. Lepas tu blogging sbb dah lama tak blog. I can never really function when there is people around. Sometimes. So tak jadi lipat kain. Esok je la jawabnya... Esok kena:

Beli groceries
Basuh kain
Lipat kain
Sort and buang buku

Cakap pasal buku, baru sekarang boleh lepas rindu baca novel. I love my sweet sweet sweet time cuddling with books (bukan buku teks). Sebab rindu ni la habis tergendala all the house chores. Rindu sangat. So say whatever to house chores... Hahaha. Cuti ni habis satu novel pun okay. Dari bila entah asyik bukak novel baru... baca separuh jalan lepas tu tinggal. and then repeat. So azam cuti ni habis kan novel. Sebuah je... I miss painting, sketching as well :/ Tapi tak bawak balik barang2 pun sebab tau tak kan sempat punya buat di rumah. So bawak balik my 'inspire' spiral notebook tu je and a pen.

Masa lain plan nak buat spring cleaning. PLAN. In sha Allah buat. Just clean almari buku je. So yeah. No biggie. Tapi takut distracted pulak. Anyways, tadi saya dapat idea nak buat notebooks. mcm vintage like note book. :3 yeay me. kita tgk nnt berhasil ke tak. tak sabar.

Okay nak pi tidoq kan adik2. Walaupun dah besar still kena teman kan tido. So what I do usually saya akan ceritakan kisah Pak Musang and Mak Ayam. Classic. Tak tau korang tahu ke tak. The same story everytime diorang nak tido. Mcm bonding session sebelum tido. Walaupun cerita yang sama saya ubah sikit2 ikut keadaan semasa. im cool liddat ^.^v

Ok peeps. Toodles :3

Merah

Ye itu lah warna kegemaran saya. I used to loathe red before. Tetapi citarasa boleh berubah, jadi sekarang saya amat menyukai warna garang ini. Waaahhh.. dah macam ayat dalam majalah InTrend..hoho. So, sebab saya ni suka jawab personality test (dan dari pelbagai aspek) I have came out across this:

Red: The color of strength, health, and vitality. Red is often the color chosen by someone outgoing, aggressive, vigorous and impulsive—or someone who would like to be! It goes with an ambitious nature but those who choose it can be abrupt at times, determined to get all they can out of life, quick to judge people and take sides. Red people are usually optimistic and can’t stand monotony; they are rather restless and not at all introspective, so they may be unaware of their own shortcomings. They find it hard to be objective and may blame others for any mishaps. Quiet people with a preference for red may feel the need for the warmth, strength and life-giving qualities of the color, or they blanket their true feelings under a sober exterior. Red is usually chosen by people with open and uncomplicated natures, with a zest for life.

Most of it true for me. :3

Credit to: www.care2.com

monday morning

Yellow :) another comic strip for you guys. enjoy :)) pictures; credit goes to mkAPz

How Uni Works

Salam and hello everyone :))

Sihat? How are you? Como estas? Kaifa haluka/i? Harap semuanya sihat-sihat belaka. My final exam for 2nd sem 2nd year just ended. And yes it's time for holidddaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy. Dan seperti biasa tak holiday sangat sebab ada program. So cutinya sekejap sahaja. Kepada siapa yang mengenali aktiviti saya mereka akan tahu program yang tidak asing itu ialah Program Sekretariat Sekolah@MMU. Kali ini di Perlis. Semoga dipermudahkan urusan kami semua. Amin~ 

Now, back to the topic, it always occur to me that every semester is different but the same. Haaa.. macam mana tu? I'm sure it happens to other university/college (or equivalent) as well. Let's starts with the end. After exam, semua muhasabah diri, fikir balik how they did it for the last exam. Whether it is good or bad, azamnya still sama utk sem depan: buat betul2. Specifically, kita akan berazam untuk pergi ke kelas(yang ni tak sangat kot), buat tutorial, study awal untuk exam, habiskan assignment cepat2 so that we have time to revise. Semuanya yang positive la senang cite supaya exam sem depan boleh buat dengan lebih bagus. So new sem started. WE TRY to do as we plan to. But selalu tak jadi... Awal2 sem kerja tak bertimbun lagi so,  tangguh la dulu. Kawan ajak keluar lepak no hal punya. Tutorial tak buat. Study nanti2 la. Bila tengah sem dah busy sikit. Dapat assignment ada group meeting. Banyak la group meeting nya dah 4/5 subjek dengan individual assignment lagi kalau ada. Time ni dah start menyumpah dah. Tapi bila nak lepak still on. Kerja campak tepi. Realitinya, for most of us, lagi seminggu ke deadline, baru nak buat. Hoho... Kurang tido siapkan assignment sume, pastu nak kena study untuk final pulok. Untung kalau ada study week kalau takde bersemputlah anda revising untuk final. Ikut la cara belajar macam mana, ada yg dah prepare okay, okay la... Ada yang stay up.. pastu exam week. Kalau ada yang tak sempat2 nak belajar tu mesti fikir 'I wish I have managed my time well'. Jadi mula la azam untuk manage masa betul2 pada sem akan datang. Lepas exam result pulak keluar. Result tu pun menyumbang kepada kepraktikan azam tu. Kalau result okay relax sudah. Kalau tak okay kemungkinan azam tu akan dilaksanakan. Dan realitinya lagi sekali azam hanya tinggal azam. Hanya beberapa kerat je yang berjaya.

I admit I one of those yang mencuba tapi hasilnya tak sesempurna yang dibayangkan. Lebih-lebih lagi sem yang baru saja tamat ni. It occur to me that life at uni is not all about getting good grades by studying. It's about getting good grades by managing your time. And sometimes it's not even about good grades. It's about preparing ourselves to face the 'real world'; managing time; you have more things to do than you have time for all that; dealing with people; group assignments, organizing event; responsibility and everything outside the classroom. I'm not saying that getting good grades is not important (it is VERY important) but real world requires more that that. They want skills: communication, peoples skill. I know, I know... the world is too demanding! They want us to be all rounder but somehow we got tangled. But yeah that's the fact.

So yang mana baru nak masuk uni/college tu enjoy and have fun 'juggling'. Hahah... All the best to all. To all mmu-ian pray that your result turn well. Kalau dah usaha, Allah tak kan mensia-siakan usaha kita. In sha Allah.

See you in the next post. :) Take care, hugs and kisses.

XOXO,
F. (Ala-ala Istanbul Aku Datang gitu...hahaha)

February post

Salam. Hi J Today is one of my unproductive days. So, I thought I might just want to write about it so that I will feel better. I miss blogging and I don’t do it much recently. Yes, it is because of the laptop keyboard. Don’t really like typing with this one. But I did. I can’t bear not typing this any longer. I might get a new laptop when new semester started. Or the latest, during the next academic year. It is currently during the exam week in MMU. So yeah, I have 3 more papers to go. One had disappointed me. Like really, really bad. I really thought that I can nail that one since 2 out of 3 coming papers are really difficult. But my strategy went plummet. And my back up plan is? Yeah, nail the other 3 papers and by that I mean crack your head now before you crack your heart later. Right? Spanish paper was the first but that doesn’t really count much as it is pass or fail subject. I can fathom Spanish quite well. Si, como no J *pray that I pass.

So now, I am SUPPOSED to revise like nobody business but I end up editing my own picture J Jyeaaahhhhhh. #likeaboss. Edited picture is for private view only. Sorry. Not that nice though. I am amateur editor. I don’t have that sharp skill in editing but I take this as my start.  Since I can’t show you the picture I’ve edited just now, here’s   a masterpiece of mine that I’ve edited 2 years back. It was for my computer application II assignment for my website. J I love art.

I am a happy child again. Until next post peeps. Assalamualaikum

p/s: oh and it's February ;) winkwink

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No... Waaahh... Omg... I hate talented people... You seriously didn't just do that... *depress... *impress... Waaahh... *wondering what happens next.... Above all, superb! Thumbs up