#first2017

Assalamualaikum and Hello again everyone~!!!

Hahaha... The last time i wrote a post was mid-last year. But i do write a few more, it's just that i didn't post it. It was some heart-pouring thing where common sense are nowhere to be seen. Hahaha. But I'm okay now. Well at least for NOW. I hope i'm going to be okay for the rest of the year. So here I am indulging in my passion again. Typing, writing, posting or whatever :).

Second of all I would like to wish everyone a Happy 2017~!!! It's not too late yet compared to when i post last year X'D So this year i am better because it is only March so yeay me! Of course my new year's resolution is to write as much as possible (like every other year's resolution) but this time I am aiming for once a month post. So i can sum up what happen during the month and my blog is not dead and i can make myself happy by writing my blog again. It's been a good 7 years having this blog and i don't want it to go to nothing. It is a commitment that i made and i enjoy it and i love it still and it has a special place in my heart. I couldn't careless if not many people read it (is there any people read blog nowadays?) as long as i can write. There! Haha.

I've been thinking about plan writing this post and a few post for a long time now. But that remains that. It's just in my head. I was busy with work or something else. Or maybe it's just really i don't set a time to do it (plan failure alert!). I'm half blaming social media for this...Hahaha. Because I was so distracted by it and I couldn't help myself checking it frequently and didn't really do what I wish/plan to do because half of my time im on social media and other half is eat, sleep, work, shower and all that. Am I addicted to it? Probably just minor XD but the fact that i can't have control over my emotion after i'm browsing it just so disappointing.

I am mostly active on Twitter and Instagram and I always felt disturbed after scrolling down Twitter because sometimes it's just too negative for me because people are hating on each other, bashing people for a small thing and people make a joke out of something serious and vice versa (this is particularly for Malaysian Twitter community though I think anywhere else are just as same) and gosh people looovveeee, just loooovvveee, big capital L Loveee to give their opinion on things. Some are just "experts" on everything and must give opinion on everything and their misplaced sarcasm on issues. Well please save 'em for something that needs your sarcasm. You are not being cool being sarcastic all the time. Sometimes it's just annoying. Geez.

And as for Instagram, I always felt overwhelmed after i scroll through. You know they say that it is all filtered and not as happy as they seem on it. But i didn't see the unhappy part so i can't lie to my brain. And not that im not happy seeing other people happy but i can't help compared myself to them and feel that you are not successful enough, rich enough or even CREATIVE enough or in summary you try to count your blessing but still wanting more. So that made me unhappy and even demotivated. I got distracted at work and constantly think I was not meant for this job, i don't like it and i was meant to be some artist painting on abstract piece for postcards and greetings card. Which I haven't done any of those because all this while i only scrolling for ideas but never really DID it.

So i logged out from both twitter and instagram. Just for a while because i feel that i feel demotivated at work because of all these and yes sadly i can't control how i react to them. Some people just can scroll through and without having any impact on their life (that's my elder sister). So by logging out i hope that i can focus on my current work (though in time i would like to work on something else) and do what i really want to do or love to do. If i still cant do that then maybe that is because of something else. Right now it is quite evident because i have more time to blog and spring clean my room. But i'm still on facebook but i think facebook it not as impactful or distrcting as twitter and ig for me. At least it is varied (in some way...hahaha). OMG! I feel old when i said that XD.

I hope i can logged out as long as I possibly can. It's been only three or four days but it feels like forever. Until I learn how to deal with it, i think im better off without it so that i can focus on my work and my study. Oh the fidgety feeling i got when i always wants to check it. I caught myself wanting to check my phone every 2 minutes (see that's why i can't focus) and always reached out for my phone. My hands are just on auto-pilot. Just when i logged out twitter i feel that i'll be missing out on the news because my news source is that but i can just google it so no worries. Hahaha. I still youtubed though. Is youtube a social media? Can be distracting but no overwhelmed feelings. So okay... XD

Without my main social media I hope that i can blog more, do art more or at least planning for it (I'm still learning how to plan things in life) because life before this is as smooth AF. I really and consciously feel that I have come to that challenging age where i really learn a lot and reflect back on myself and just might change me, change how behave and how i do things, appreciate people and just to embrace life with an open heart and mind. InsyaAllah.

This very moment of typing this makes me so happy and it is satisfying feeling of accomplishment.

I hope and wish and pray I can do more of this.

Best Regards,

F.

When it only amount to this

I don't really like having dispute with people. I don't like to pick up fight with anyone except Khairul. Hahaha. Joke. I don't like it  now more because it will hurt my jaw every time I think of the moment I get hurt with people's remarks or what they have done or not done to me. Yes, hurt my jaw. Rasa lenguh. Because I often clinch my teeth when I'm stress. Thinking of it making me stress and... woa wait! Im going in circle explaining... Never mind. IT's just HURT physically and mentally. Period.

What is more frustrating is that the urge want to stand up for myself or to hurt them back only amount to this: writing in blog which not that those people follow me or read my blog. Is there anyone still reading my blog? Haha. It's like I'm scolding my teddy bear and the only thing he do is keep smiling and all those yelling and screaming and explaining to him only gives me minimal satisfaction. Ouh how I love to scream out those foul words to them and hurt them back. But then again, I don't like having dispute with people. What would happen to my image if I responded like a mad person. No I don't like it either. And even if I would explain it in a well manner, things not going to be the same again. I'm afraid of jeopardizing relationship I guess. Hmmm... And the other thing that I usually did was told Khairul about it. I told him the exact words I'm going to said to the person I'm discontent with - if i'm ever going to tell.

So, I just can't really you know fight back. Maybe because I think the outcome will always be negative. If the outcome is positive would it be a waste not to response back. I did response. But very diplomatically.

So here it goes:

1) Please open your eyes and heart and know me better. ;) You'll be glad that I'm not the one that cares (to those kind of thing). I'm not kepoci. Seriously, I have a humongous number of things to do that makes me happy rather then search for stories to tell. The fact that I DON'T EVEN tell stories. I only joke around with you and it seems to me that you're the filler and I just play along, the killer, the puncher. Masih diplomatik. Haha. My policy is if people want to tell me anything I listen and JUST listen. If people don't want to share their stories, even if I know about it briefly, I won't force them to tell. It's their right to remain silence about it. Maybe before you point out flaws to other people, you can reflect your self first. Sometimes the root to the problem is you yourself :)

2) The previous sem is hard and challenging and I can assure you that I really have worked for it. For me the result is satisfying, more than I expected. Ouh if you could only share the fear with me. I know it's NOT A LOT well for you. Don't you feel like asking how is it for me? For me it's A LOT. A simple encouraging remarks would do. And I don't really ask for rewards. Things. If you want to give that really all up to you. I'm not asking. I only ask for meaningful support. That's it. I'm simple like that and you guys more than any other person knows that. Love you guys, nevertheless.

3) Please don't mind I'm not eating with you, accompany you every where, or not doing something with you. I'm like this. I move fast and independent. I don't want people to follow me and I can't stick to other people's schedule because I have a plan of my own. If you want me you then have to keep up. Well, that sounds harsh no? Let's just say that I have my own plan. Yes, I'm aware of the boyfriend issue. I would love each and every one of you to have your love ones nearby. And and and tell me if you don't want to see him everyday when he's just next door, okay? Apart from that, I will try do my best to spend time with you guys okay? ^.^v

And sadly, it only amount to this.

Regards,
Fana Ayam.

As-Sami'

Don't you just feel relief and reassured every time as you know there is As-Sami' - the Hearer of all.

When nobody wants to listen to you, you know there's always Him to listen to your every prayer and complains, your wish and basically everything. He always listen. Fret not my friends.

So pour your hearts out to Him. He will listen as Allah is As-Sami' and Al-Alim - the Knower of all. 

Regards,

Fana :)

And Alhamdulillah for the good that He bestowed me today. 

No pressure people

Assalamualaikum and hello :)

It's been a long time no? Happy Ramadan to all muslims :)  May this Ramadan bring barakah to all of you. Amin~

Yeah, so... how do I start? It's all in my head but it is kinda hard to put it in sentence. Actually I do have the sentence in my head - the main points. It's just the introduction part. We always have problem with introduction right? So, never mind, here we go. So recently I realized (just realized) that I have been under a lot of pressure. I have no time for 'trivia' stuff - the fact that they are essential part of me like blogging and doing art stuff. I have to keep up with my own schedule. I somehow have A LOT of things to do. I barely had time for myself. So I forgive myself for not having time doing the fun things because I 'don't have' time and I take 6 subjects for this semester so I have to keep up. Ironically, not very much 'things' can be settled on time. Since, time is insufficient for me. I think I have manage time well but it was not fruitful. I don't know. I'm not sure where it went wrong and I don't even want to know the reason - well, not yet, not now. So yeah that makes a part of my stress life.

Recently (also) I've disappointed because things doesn't turn out to my favor. I've been working for that 'thing' all my heart out - it makes to my top priority. It's definitely my passion, my stage. I believe I am the best thespian on stage and best player on the field. But, as I mentioned things didn't happen the way that I want it to be. I am disappointed, defeated. I know I'm the best (waaahhh... confident gitew) but just not my rezeqi I guess. Mungkin kena reflect diri sendiri balik. Confident tu penting tapi over-confident tu tak bagus. I tend to look down on poeple. Rasanya sebab buat kerje tak ikhlas kot. Niat tak betulkan... tu la jadinya. Sebab nak tunjukkan kat orang yang kita ni bagus. Everything is competition. Then, the EGO comes in. I kinda actually stop having fun to prove myself worthy. Aduh, stress -.-" Lupa pulak you can never satisfy people. And nothing is certain. So yeah, tersentak jap.. sentak ye bukan sentap. It's okay to expect something but if it doesn't turn out like how you want it to be DON'T DESPAIR. Because something better might awaits you. Lain kali jangan sombong dan takbur. Faham adik2? Buat kerja biar ikhlas dan haraplah ganjaram dari Allah dan bersangka baiklah selalu. So pengajaran for me I guess.

So, I kinda take everything slowly now. Tak nak tamak sangat. Hahaha... But I still need to rush things though but not too rush. I'll take my time appreciating small things that give me significant comforts. I really want to enjoy things that need to be done and I will. Kalau nampak saya stress cakap kat saya 'GO GET A LIFE!' pastu simbah air. Tapi kalau nak kena tumbuk buat la... hahah. Joking! But the simbah air part tu tak yah buat la.

So, yeah that's about it. Sorry ayat berterabur. Lama dah tak mengarang. Selalu tulis essay je for assignment. Nak buat ayat mudah pun tak reti dah. Huhu. Next post in sha Allah pasal kucing ^._.^ me love cat.

Until then, see ya in the next post.

Regards,
Farhana

How Uni Works

Salam and hello everyone :))

Sihat? How are you? Como estas? Kaifa haluka/i? Harap semuanya sihat-sihat belaka. My final exam for 2nd sem 2nd year just ended. And yes it's time for holidddaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy. Dan seperti biasa tak holiday sangat sebab ada program. So cutinya sekejap sahaja. Kepada siapa yang mengenali aktiviti saya mereka akan tahu program yang tidak asing itu ialah Program Sekretariat Sekolah@MMU. Kali ini di Perlis. Semoga dipermudahkan urusan kami semua. Amin~ 

Now, back to the topic, it always occur to me that every semester is different but the same. Haaa.. macam mana tu? I'm sure it happens to other university/college (or equivalent) as well. Let's starts with the end. After exam, semua muhasabah diri, fikir balik how they did it for the last exam. Whether it is good or bad, azamnya still sama utk sem depan: buat betul2. Specifically, kita akan berazam untuk pergi ke kelas(yang ni tak sangat kot), buat tutorial, study awal untuk exam, habiskan assignment cepat2 so that we have time to revise. Semuanya yang positive la senang cite supaya exam sem depan boleh buat dengan lebih bagus. So new sem started. WE TRY to do as we plan to. But selalu tak jadi... Awal2 sem kerja tak bertimbun lagi so,  tangguh la dulu. Kawan ajak keluar lepak no hal punya. Tutorial tak buat. Study nanti2 la. Bila tengah sem dah busy sikit. Dapat assignment ada group meeting. Banyak la group meeting nya dah 4/5 subjek dengan individual assignment lagi kalau ada. Time ni dah start menyumpah dah. Tapi bila nak lepak still on. Kerja campak tepi. Realitinya, for most of us, lagi seminggu ke deadline, baru nak buat. Hoho... Kurang tido siapkan assignment sume, pastu nak kena study untuk final pulok. Untung kalau ada study week kalau takde bersemputlah anda revising untuk final. Ikut la cara belajar macam mana, ada yg dah prepare okay, okay la... Ada yang stay up.. pastu exam week. Kalau ada yang tak sempat2 nak belajar tu mesti fikir 'I wish I have managed my time well'. Jadi mula la azam untuk manage masa betul2 pada sem akan datang. Lepas exam result pulak keluar. Result tu pun menyumbang kepada kepraktikan azam tu. Kalau result okay relax sudah. Kalau tak okay kemungkinan azam tu akan dilaksanakan. Dan realitinya lagi sekali azam hanya tinggal azam. Hanya beberapa kerat je yang berjaya.

I admit I one of those yang mencuba tapi hasilnya tak sesempurna yang dibayangkan. Lebih-lebih lagi sem yang baru saja tamat ni. It occur to me that life at uni is not all about getting good grades by studying. It's about getting good grades by managing your time. And sometimes it's not even about good grades. It's about preparing ourselves to face the 'real world'; managing time; you have more things to do than you have time for all that; dealing with people; group assignments, organizing event; responsibility and everything outside the classroom. I'm not saying that getting good grades is not important (it is VERY important) but real world requires more that that. They want skills: communication, peoples skill. I know, I know... the world is too demanding! They want us to be all rounder but somehow we got tangled. But yeah that's the fact.

So yang mana baru nak masuk uni/college tu enjoy and have fun 'juggling'. Hahah... All the best to all. To all mmu-ian pray that your result turn well. Kalau dah usaha, Allah tak kan mensia-siakan usaha kita. In sha Allah.

See you in the next post. :) Take care, hugs and kisses.

XOXO,
F. (Ala-ala Istanbul Aku Datang gitu...hahaha)

Before I go to sleep

That is actually a title of a book. I haven't got the time to read it aaannnddd there's one that I 'currently' reading, haven't finish it yet (note that currently is past few months XP) Anyways, I don't want to talk about that right now. I'm actually in the middle of doing my tax assignment (pssst.. the due date is extended until after Raya. Yeay for now). This always happens regularly when you are doing your assignments or studying for your finals, there are always, suddenly, something to write about, words and ideas just flowing into your minds and your hands get really itchy; it wants to write BADLY. If doing my assignments makes me write blog posts, then I'm satisfied. Writing this blog is one of the things that makes me happy. So, bring in the assignments!!! KIDDING... I had enough to inspire me. :)

Move on to the main point that I actually want to deliver: I THINK flash mob is inspired by hindi movies. Why? You know it's like when suddenly everyone knows the exact same step for the choreography and knows the song; it's like so magical. The singing part in hindi movies somehow suggest that when you are happy then the world will be happy for you... No hasad dengki and whatnot... Hahaha... They wear colorful clothes and sing, dance for you, with you. And all of you spread the happiness to every part of the world. At one point sing and dance in India at other times in Switzerland, London, US.... yada yada. As for waktu sedih, the world seems to understand your sorrow. Imagine it happens in real life: you are happy that you finish your assignments, everyone around starts singing and dancing. That would be cool and weird no??? Hahaha. Ok apa lagi nak tulis...hmmm. I think that's about. Enjoy the videos. They are one of my favourite:

Oh yea... Now dah masuk 10 last day of Ramadan. Sooo... mari manfaatkannya. Let's make these nights worth it :) InsyaAllah.

p/s: I'm not even going to sleep.

Regards,
Farhana

Admit It

It's easier to judge people than to understand them 

at, first. But as you get to know that person then only you will know why they act or behave that way

True story

admit it, when you first saw someone weird/different you will still have that thought on the back of your mind

"WEIRD"

You just don't say it out loud. 

Then it fades out only when you know that person

or your perception verified 

when you have the sound reason to call him/her that

Ya Rabb,


I pray that this man that I love will lead me to taqwa...


Amin~

Zikrullah

Allah SWT berfirman, "Aku sesuai dengan persangkaan hambaKu kepadaKu, Aku bersamanya (dengan ilmu dan rahmat) bila dia ingat Aku. Jika dia mengingatku dalam dirinya, Aku mengingatnya dalam diriKu. Jika dia menyebut namaKu dalam satu perkumpulan, Aku menyebutnya dalam perkumpulan yang lebih baik dari mereka. Bila dia mendekat kepadaKu sejengkal, Aku mendekat kepadanya sehasta. Jika dia mendekat kepadaKu sehasta, Aku mendekat kepadanya sedepa. Jika dia datang kepadaKu dengan berjalan (biasa), maka Aku mendatanginya dengan berjalan cepat."

Hadis riwayat Al-Bukhari dan Muslim

Dr. Wan Maseri, Asmaul Husna Atas Namamu Aku Merintih

Drive safely

Last day of Ramadhan and my patience was tested. I had not done any of my raya shopping up until the last two days of puasa. Sibuklah katakan (dan kurang duit untuk dibelajankan). So I went to Subang Parade last day of puasa. Adalah jumpa satu blouse and tudung but tak jumpa kasut yang best.GGGRRRRR. Punya la banyak kasut yang ada kat situ,boleh tak berkenan. Ingatkan nak pergi Empire
tapi Liana dah tak larat. HMPH! Ok la fine la...penatkan jalan-jalan sambil puasa.I have to admit that I felt the same as well. Ingatkan nak ajak mama pergi Pyramid tapi dia pun sibuk juga. Sibuk masak. Rendang, ketupat and such. So tak dapatlah ikut sama. So when I was driving back I was furious. Sebab? Tak jumpa kasut. Bawa kereta laju gila! Laju la for me as I don't usually drive at that speed. Waktu nak tukar lane tu ada la satu kereta ni. We were speeding up. I bagi signal tapi kereta tu niether go slow nor speed up more than my car. Rasanya dia tak nampak kot. I don't know. Dan saya pun potong secara laju dan berbahaya so that tak miss simpang kat depan tu.Yang penting saya di HONK!!! I blacked out for a few seconds. My sister kat sebelah. She didn't breathe a word. Takut agaknya.

Balik rumah baru saya tanya my sister about the car. I asked whether the driver was a man/woman, ramai ke dalam kereta tu, was I driving dangerously, etcetc. She said she didn't know about the driver. Maybe dia pun takut nak tengok. Yang penting: Yeap I was driving dangerously and almost berlanggar dengan kereta tu. Tapi mujurlah tak jadi apa-apa. Alhamdulillah. I was thinking what if ada family dalam kereta tu, ada baby ke, orang tua ke, orang kurang upaya ke.And I imagined my sister's fear. Haih. So upset with myself. Waktu
dia honk tu memang rasa nak maki balik la tapi bila pikir2 balik, salah saya juga kot. Kalau accident (touch wood) kan susah. Diorang tak boleh beraya and bercuti(regardless Muslim or not). Niether can I. Nak bayar belanja repair kereta lagi. Kalau ada yang maut ke, kan payah. Nauzubillah. Yeah people I think THAT MUCh. I should call myself THE THINKER. (Nah, more of the worrier). Anyways, the point is,
saya rasa dalam hal ni saya ada buat salah and I really feel bad about it and I AM SORRY!!! Kan best kalau ada honk bunyi 'sorry'. And bila pikir2 balik, saya marah pasal kasut je pun. Kasut tu ada banyak
in production. But LIFE? ONCE. In life there are plenty of second chances. But life itself? No second chance. Maybe because the homo sapiens will take it for granted if too many chances are given.

So people, when you are in the driver's seat make sure you are in a natural state, regardless you are a female or male. I never believe that when my roomate said that you really drive dangerously when you are furious. But now I believe her. Got to be careful next time.

And that's all for this entry. Drive safe, be safe.

Road user,
(Signature)
Farhana :)

Happy Ramadan to all muslims :) Bila wish ni rasa macam setahun kejap sangat. Rasanya baru haritu tulis entry pasal how you should appreciate Ramadan a little bit more than Syawal supaya kita tak jadi orang yang rugi. Same advice also this year. Let's make this time worth while. Bertuah kan kita dapat bertemu Ramadan tahun ni. Syukur~

Again. Selamat menyambut Ramadan

XD

What's the point of being too careful when in the end your fragile heart will still break into pieces?

I would like to say: end all your worries, grab the chances, take the risk, go with the flow and see where you end up. Life is something worth living. If something bad happened, remember: there's always sunshine behind that dark, heavy cloud.

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Sayang Sahabat

Jam menunjukkan pukul 6.56 petang. Lampu-lampu jalan sudah mula dihidupkan, menggantikan tugas Sang Matahari pada waktu malam. Suhaila terus menapak menuju ke hostel yang jauhnya tak sampai 200 meter. Petang itu dia dan rakan baiknya, Nisa berjalan-jalan mengelilingi kampus, makan angin. Sudah hampir setengah hari terkurung di dalam bilik menyiapkan tugasan-tugasan yang menggunung, mereka mengambil keputusan untuk berjalan-jalan untuk melepaskan stress. Bak kata pepatah Inggeris, all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. Suhaila dan Nisa tidak mahulah jadi seperti Jack, jadi mereka pun melakukan aktiviti riadah pada petang itu. Study, study juga main, main juga. Balance and modest!

Suhaila mempercepat perjalanan, waktu Maghrib sudah semakin hampir. Dia tidak mahu menjadi seperti semalam. Kerana asyik bermain badminton di gym, tidak sedar hari sudah gelap. Terpaksa ganti solat. Rasa bersalah kepada Tuhan tak tertanggung rasanya. Bukan dia tidak tahu apa balasannya orang melambatkan waktu solat. Menggerunkan. Itulah yang Suhaila rasa selepas membaca artikel berkaitan di laman sosial Facebook. Mulai hari itu dia cuba solat seawal mungkin selepas masuk waktu walaupun kadang-kadang tidak berjaya. Tapi tak mengapa, dia percaya sesuatu itu perlu dilakukan secara berperingkat. Sikit-sikit lama-lama jadi bukit dan yang penting mestilah konsisten atau istiqamah.

Setibanya di bangunan hostel, kedengaran azan Maghrib berkumandang. Alamak, dah lambat dah ni, nak mandi lagi, aduh... bisik hati kecil Suhaila.

" Eh jom makan dulu, lapar la..." Nisa bersuara setelah selesai azan.
"Errr... aku..."
" Jom la, lapar sangat dah ni. Kalau aku pengsan siapa nak angkat?" Gurau Nisa.
"Aku nak mandi, sembahyang dulu."
"Oh, okay lah, kau naik dulu, aku makan sorang, takpe."

Nisa terus menuju ke tempat makan yang terletak dekat dengan hostel. Suhaila hanya mampu lihat Nisa pergi. Niat untuk ajak solat bersama tidak berjaya. Ah, kenapa susah sangat ni?! Suhaila mengeluh sendiri. Berat betul nak buka mulut. Dia tahu Nisa tidak uzur. Usaha untuk mengajak Nisa mendirikan solat sering kali gagal. Hal sebenarnya, Suhaila tidak tahu bagaimana nak ajak, ayat apa yang sesuai untuk dituturkan untuk mengajak Nisa agar dia tidak terasa hati, supaya dia rasa selesa dengan ajakan itu, supaya dia setuju!! Buntu dibuatnya. Takkan mahu dibiarkan saja. Terasa berdosa pula. Takkan dia seorang sahaja yang mendapat pahala, yang nak masuk syurga sementara kawan-kawan yang lain terus menerus meninggalkan suruhan Allah taala, terus berdosa? Kejam, cukup kejam. Suhaila tahu Nisa tahu kepentingan solat, makna solat kepada muslimin dan muslimat. Malah, Suhaila sendiri pernah lihat Nisa mengerjakan solat. Alhamdulillah. Tapi sekarang tidak lagi atau mungkin Suhaila tidak nampak. Suhaila rasa menjadi tanggungjawabnya untuk mengajak sahabatnya itu mengerjakan solat lima waktu.

Walaupun begitu, Suhaila sedar dirinya juga masih tidak sempurna, solatnya masih ada yang 'lubang-lubang', ada yang tidak khusyu' ada yang tidak sempurna. Namun dia masih cuba untuk memperbaiki solatnya, insyaAllah, semoga Allah membantu usahanya. Selepas mengerjakan solat Maghrib, Suhaila berdoa kepada Allah agar diberikan petunjuk, diberikan cara untuk memujuk sahabatnya untuk mendirikan solat. Berdoa agar orang-orang yang dikasihi, yang berada di sekelilingnya dipancarkan nur dan hidayah. Nisa kini mendapat tempat dalam doa Suhaila. Senantiasa. Nisa, aku sayang kau. Jom solat :')

~~~ Wallahualam~~

Salam Maal Hijrah

Assalamualaikum to all the readers,

Salam Maal Hijrah to all Muslim brothers and sisters. May this new year, we become a better Muslim insyaAllah :) Berikut adalah azam tahun baru saya pada tahun baru ini:

• Follow closely the Islamic calender
• Jaga solat fardhu and banyakkan solat sunat

Ada lagi la, tapi yang ni je yang utama bagi saya. So, if ada kawan2 yang ada azam baru juga, alhamdulillah. Saya doakan kita sama dapat merealisasikan azam kita. InsyaAllah. May our life is blessed by Allah taala.

Being normal

Kenapa saya perlu gila-gila jaga hati orang lain bila orang lain tak buat yang sama pada saya?
Itu saya.

Mungkin saya tak nak lukakan hati mereka sebab saya nak mereka senantiasa berada bersama saya
Mungkin saya sunyi

But who am I kidding?
Saya sendiri

Ada masa saya akan buat silap as in hurt other people's feeling. Saya manusia biasa
Kalau tidak takkan wujud perkataan maaf, ampun, sorry, forgive, apologise

From now on, I'll say what I want to say, I'll react how I want to, I let my feelings show, I don't want to lie anymore
If I did something wrong I'll say I'm sorry.

That easy? What the hell?
Hmmm... yeah. After all we make mistake as well, we also have to say sorry to each other, kan?

Saya tak nak ungkit apa yang anda buat pada saya...
Ada satu buku ni cakap, that is the dumbest thing to do. Macam, no matter how much money you pay, you won't be able to get masa-masa indah/buruk(untuk dibetulkan) yang dah berlalu... Let it be. Move foward

Kamu tahu? Saya belajar listening skill(kinda) just, just so that saya boleh dengar masalah kawan saya and in return I hope she/he will find me VERY UNDERSTANDING and stay with me. Like I've mentioned just now, mungkin saya sunyi. But dont berharap sangat from people, diorang tak perfect, diorang lupa, diorang sometimes tak nampak. So buatlah segalanya lillahitaala. Kerana Dia nampak, Dia tahu, Dia ingat. Hope for Allah's blessing. My mistake I guess. Terlalu berharap kepada orang lain

Fyi, cerita kat atas tu cerita lama. Ni bukan ungkit, ni pengajaran saya dapat untuk share. Bukan tak boleh percaya/berharap pada orang, boleh. But sometimes kan, not too much. We dont know what is going to happen. Balik pada cerita ungkit-mengungkit tadi. Ada satu situation di mana saya marah gila dengan kawan-kawan saya and I think I should be. So everytime they contact me I gave them cold reply. Memang tiada maaf bagimu la. And I hope that they apologise to me. Well, they did as far as I can remember but naahh.. my heart said 'pegi mati la lu'. Then as time passed, marah saya masih ada lagi. I can't let it go you know. I feel cheated, hatred filled my heart, anger rest in my body. You know what, saya tak tenang, lagi rasa sunyi. Then one day(it didnt just happen ok, I reflect back on what had happen, and berdoa agar diberi penyelesaian.) I decided to forgive them. And the feeling is heaven:)

Saya mengambil keputusan untuk buang jauh-jauh perasan benci ni dan yang tinggal ialah hati yang tenang. Takde lagi ungkit-ungkit. Saya cuma berhati-hati je lain kali dan tidak terlalu mengharap. I believe what Allah decided on me. Even if it is that bad, just gonna tell myself, 'ada hikmah disebalik semua ni', 'ni yang terbaik', 'think positive' etcetc it's not easy but I gotta try. And I got to change my attitude as well. I'm not sure what but maybe be more open minded something like that and there's other things that I can't write here. When I decide to forgive them is not that something that I can or can't do, it is something I wan't or don't want to. Macam orang kata di mana ada kemahuan di situ ada jalan.

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Ampunkanku

Ya Rab,

Selalu saja diri ini tidak bersyukur atas nikmat yamg Kau berikan, malah lebih saja berkeluh kesah atas takdirMu sedang apa yang ditakdirkan itu adalah yang paling baik untuk diri ini kerana sesungguhnya Kau Maha Mengetahui...

Alhamdulillah atas nikmat kurniaanMU

Dear Mr Time

Mr Time,

Tolong jangan cemburui saya,

Kerana saya tidak ada apa-apa kelebihan berbanding anda,

Anda boleh tinggalkan saya,

Lama, sekejap

Dan saya pula akan sentiasa penat mengejar anda,

Penat, penat sangat,

Anda tinggalkan saya namun begitu,

Anda tetap di sini memberi peringatan kepada saya,

Mr Time sangat berharga saya akui,

Manusia samakan anda dengan emas namun nilai anda lebih dari itu,

Saya tahu...

Siapa yang tangguhkan kerja bermakna dia telah mencuri Mr Time

Janganlah kita jadi pencuri ya...

Akhir kalam, saya semputlah kejar Mr Time

Tunggu sekejap boleh, sekejap je...?

Tapi saya tahu tak boleh,

Mr Time kan tak boleh undur,

macam kereta Formula One, takde gear reverse.. HAHA

Hargailah waktu yang kita ada:)

~*Ramadan*~

Selamat berpuasa kepada seluruh saudara saudari muslim dan mukmin.:) Jadikanlah puasa pada tahun ini lebih bermakna. Banyak-banyakkan berdoa. Dan yang pasti kita sangat bertuah kerana dipanjangkan umur kerana masih lagi dapat 'berjumpa' dengan bulan Ramadan pada tahun ini. Alhamdulillah~ Jadi masih ada kesempatan untuk kita memperbanyakkan ibadat, bertaubat dan mendekatkan diri dengan Maha Pencipta. Dengan itu, mari kita mengambil kesempatan ini untuk beribadah sehabis baik:) Dan kalau boleh kita teruskan juga ibadah extra yang kita amalkan dalam bulan Ramadan ke bulan seterusnya( but not Tarawih of course, ibadah sunat lain la). Nasihat untuk kamu dan saya jua...

Dekat tempat baru berpuasa. Hmm.. banyak kena consider. Kat mana nak buka puasa, sahur, tarawih kat mana tp semua dah di sort out. Jangan risau. Cuma penat je mungkin lebih. Nak jalan pegi kelas, mak ai punya la jauh especially FIT CR3003/4. Nak balik bilik kena panjat tangga. Tapi takpa lah, moga-moga dapat pahala jalan jauh2 tu, insya-Allah. Orang tengah belajar kan banyak manfaatnya. Harini first day puasa macam tak ramai orang kat kampus. Kenapa ya? Sunyi semacam.. mungkin puasa orang kurang bercakap kot.. hehe.

Belum pun puasa, some shopping complex dah pasang lagu raya=.=' melampau... Bukan raya yang kita kejar sebenarnya. Jangan la kita kerugian kerana mengejar hari raya. Raya tu tanda kemenangan sahaja. Betul, ia penting, sesuatu yang membahgiakan, seronok. Tapi, isi kepada kemenangan itu ialah apa yang kita kerjakan pada bulan Ramadhan al-Mubarak. Sikitkah? Banyakkah? Serius atau olok-olok? Jadi marilah kita mengejar untuk mengisi kemenangan itu supaya anda dan saya tidak berada dalam kerugian. (Bila teringat raya je teringat FINALS! it's a good countdown anyway, keep me alert)

Last but not least, again, happy fasting people:)
For more information on Ramadan and fasting go check out this blog: iloveAllah.com

Ya Allah ya Tuhanku, jadikanlah puasaku ini sebagai puasa orang yang benar-benar berpuasa. Amin~

Let's go outside

:)