#first2017

Assalamualaikum and Hello again everyone~!!!

Hahaha... The last time i wrote a post was mid-last year. But i do write a few more, it's just that i didn't post it. It was some heart-pouring thing where common sense are nowhere to be seen. Hahaha. But I'm okay now. Well at least for NOW. I hope i'm going to be okay for the rest of the year. So here I am indulging in my passion again. Typing, writing, posting or whatever :).

Second of all I would like to wish everyone a Happy 2017~!!! It's not too late yet compared to when i post last year X'D So this year i am better because it is only March so yeay me! Of course my new year's resolution is to write as much as possible (like every other year's resolution) but this time I am aiming for once a month post. So i can sum up what happen during the month and my blog is not dead and i can make myself happy by writing my blog again. It's been a good 7 years having this blog and i don't want it to go to nothing. It is a commitment that i made and i enjoy it and i love it still and it has a special place in my heart. I couldn't careless if not many people read it (is there any people read blog nowadays?) as long as i can write. There! Haha.

I've been thinking about plan writing this post and a few post for a long time now. But that remains that. It's just in my head. I was busy with work or something else. Or maybe it's just really i don't set a time to do it (plan failure alert!). I'm half blaming social media for this...Hahaha. Because I was so distracted by it and I couldn't help myself checking it frequently and didn't really do what I wish/plan to do because half of my time im on social media and other half is eat, sleep, work, shower and all that. Am I addicted to it? Probably just minor XD but the fact that i can't have control over my emotion after i'm browsing it just so disappointing.

I am mostly active on Twitter and Instagram and I always felt disturbed after scrolling down Twitter because sometimes it's just too negative for me because people are hating on each other, bashing people for a small thing and people make a joke out of something serious and vice versa (this is particularly for Malaysian Twitter community though I think anywhere else are just as same) and gosh people looovveeee, just loooovvveee, big capital L Loveee to give their opinion on things. Some are just "experts" on everything and must give opinion on everything and their misplaced sarcasm on issues. Well please save 'em for something that needs your sarcasm. You are not being cool being sarcastic all the time. Sometimes it's just annoying. Geez.

And as for Instagram, I always felt overwhelmed after i scroll through. You know they say that it is all filtered and not as happy as they seem on it. But i didn't see the unhappy part so i can't lie to my brain. And not that im not happy seeing other people happy but i can't help compared myself to them and feel that you are not successful enough, rich enough or even CREATIVE enough or in summary you try to count your blessing but still wanting more. So that made me unhappy and even demotivated. I got distracted at work and constantly think I was not meant for this job, i don't like it and i was meant to be some artist painting on abstract piece for postcards and greetings card. Which I haven't done any of those because all this while i only scrolling for ideas but never really DID it.

So i logged out from both twitter and instagram. Just for a while because i feel that i feel demotivated at work because of all these and yes sadly i can't control how i react to them. Some people just can scroll through and without having any impact on their life (that's my elder sister). So by logging out i hope that i can focus on my current work (though in time i would like to work on something else) and do what i really want to do or love to do. If i still cant do that then maybe that is because of something else. Right now it is quite evident because i have more time to blog and spring clean my room. But i'm still on facebook but i think facebook it not as impactful or distrcting as twitter and ig for me. At least it is varied (in some way...hahaha). OMG! I feel old when i said that XD.

I hope i can logged out as long as I possibly can. It's been only three or four days but it feels like forever. Until I learn how to deal with it, i think im better off without it so that i can focus on my work and my study. Oh the fidgety feeling i got when i always wants to check it. I caught myself wanting to check my phone every 2 minutes (see that's why i can't focus) and always reached out for my phone. My hands are just on auto-pilot. Just when i logged out twitter i feel that i'll be missing out on the news because my news source is that but i can just google it so no worries. Hahaha. I still youtubed though. Is youtube a social media? Can be distracting but no overwhelmed feelings. So okay... XD

Without my main social media I hope that i can blog more, do art more or at least planning for it (I'm still learning how to plan things in life) because life before this is as smooth AF. I really and consciously feel that I have come to that challenging age where i really learn a lot and reflect back on myself and just might change me, change how behave and how i do things, appreciate people and just to embrace life with an open heart and mind. InsyaAllah.

This very moment of typing this makes me so happy and it is satisfying feeling of accomplishment.

I hope and wish and pray I can do more of this.

Best Regards,

F.

Yeayers!

Assalamualaikum and hey hey hey :)

Today is Sunday and tomorrow is Monday. Blerghhh... Have to go to work. But I don't have any pending work for the weekend.. Yeay! :) so as I mentioned I'm going to share with you some stories with you.

So recently, I mean last year I got A LOT of opportunities to be an emcee for events. I'm very very very very very very happy when emceeing. Dari dulu memang suka mengacara ni. I remembered when I was small, dekat Disney channel ada this show I can't remember the name but Azura jadi pengacara with 3 other people. I always love that show. So dulu ada buat video sendiri interview adik2 and kakak sendiri for that show kononnya. And I always love Majalah 3 at TV3. Memang pernah bercita-cita2 la untuk jd pengacara Majalah 3. Be it yang dekat studio or yang jalan2 cari content for the program. But that remains that for a while.

So as I mentioned, dekat sekolah pun pernah jadi pengacara for a few times. But lepas tu macam terkubur jap cita2 tu. Maybe sebab masuk you ambil accounting and then I have to struggle with it and the fact that I take up that course not on my own will but then again I don't know or I can't decide what I want to be so yeah... confusion. So last year emceeing for a few events was super awesome. It feels like dream came true. Memang rasa nervous before start event. But I enjoy every second of it. So enough with the talk, picture time~!!! :)

First and Grandest :) with experienced Rishi

Ihya' Ramadan Program organized by Ministry of Education Malaysia.
Credit to the photographer. No copyright infringement intended. 

Convofest '13 Opening Ceremony

Power Transition Ceremony (SRC)

Piala Tun Dr. Siti Hasmah 2014. With Im, the highschool mate :)

Takde gambar betul time emcee. T@MU's Take 7

Majlis Perhimpunan Agung Tahunan (MAPAT)/ AGM Sekretariat Sekolah@MMU
(both pictures)

And that ladies and gentlemen, my happy moments

No dreams are too big, no dreamers are too small. 

p/s: I am looking forward to be emcee for events. I'm enthusiastic and committed. If you want to see it for yourself, please do not hesitate to drop an email at farhana_262@yahoo.com.sg :) 

Stop stoping

Salam and hello everyone.

Sitting here on my 'bed' - my travelling mat and typing this. My comforting moment would be when I Imagine or for real sitting comfortably in a couch, my hair tied up into a bun and the fringe decorate my forehead, touches the frame of my spectacle. With my favorite book cupped in my hands. I feel geeky and cute already :P Accompanied by a mug of hot chocolate. Very winter-ish. I enjoy letting my thoughts have their own way for a while, let my imagination running wild.When I do this recently, with no book in my hands, just lie down staring at the wall, a thought came to me that what's really stopping you from doing something is you yourself. 

Take me for example. Last two weeks I have given a chance to be an emcee for a grand award giving ceremony. As I mentioned in previous post, I have been longing to be the emcee for the ceremony since I attended the last year award giving ceremony. So this year, it's like a dream comes true. I got the offer. But at first I hesitant (can you believe that?). I've been wanting it for so long and I hesitated. Annoying much. Reason being, it's far too late (not sure for what). I got the offer 4 days before the event day. I even said to a friend that I readily to give up the offer because it is far too late to... be prepared I guess. And plus I don't have appropriate dress to wear. So yeah I guess, 4 days is not enough for me to find the right dress. Pfft. Diva much. Hahaha. But yeah, because I have another event in the same week, so I have to be at the grand hall for rehearsal. So no time for me to search for the right dress. Yeah, I have to be there all the time and no time to go anywhere because I am too dedicated (read with sarcasm)...lol. In short, I'm still thinking about the offer but I'm ready to give up. I really have that problem of wanting something so much and in the end, when I can get that thing, I give it up. Problem much. Much much.

But then, I talked this over with my sweetheart. He said that not to worry about the dress and he said that I have that thing in me, being an emcee. And yes I normally doubted myself. He reminds me that I wanted this so much since last year and don't let this petty things get in a way or I will regret for giving it up. He said, we will find time to find the right dress for the ceremony. And we did. And my mom & dad drive all the way from Subang to deliver her gold skirt for me to wear for the ceremony. My sayang also mentioned, don't be afraid of screwing things up (not badly) just normal mistake for a first timer like me and don't be hard on yourself if screws happens...Haha. Kind of first time for me for emceeing big event like this in university. I used to be emcee at high school for quite a number of events; Teacher's Day and that sorts. In the end, I take up the offer. And so there was I on Friday evening at the grand hall, again, for rehearsal. So I met my emcee partner and I started to feel inferior. I saw him last year and he was good. He has this big afro hair and I think that's an extra feature to appear more charismatic and firendly.I don't really have 'extra feature' and I am so thin I'm afraid that they might confuse me with a mic stand during the ceremony...lol. Exegerate much. I get nervous during the rehearsal, tongue tied so people keep asking me to relax. But they are making me more nervous. :S

So that night, I freaked out a little. Okay, I cried over the phone with my sayang and yeah I was sad because of something else too. I wanted to follow my parents to Australia for my sister graduation. So I cried. And I think the shawl doesn't match with the skirt. I feel inferior because I'm not good as my emcee partner. So I'm afraid I ruined the ceremony. Worries much. In my own Malay term I called this as 'serabut' which literally means messy but for me it means there's a lot of things that I'm thinking of and then I worry too much. Sayang said calm down, and I'm thinking too much. If my emcee partner is good then get advice or tips from him how to be a good emcee and observe him, learn from him. And so, I took the advice but still worried a little. So Saturday comes; day, rehearsal, night, the ceremony commence. And Alhamdulillah I did pretty well - I give myself 3 out of 5 stars. Some said that I did pretty well as a first timer :3. And my shawl suits the skirt and I did not end up wearing all black with gold shawl. I did my own make-up, fyi :3 In the end, interesting experience, dreams come true, not give up the thing that I wanted so much. Self enrichment. It really boost my confidence to try new things.

To point out, whatever my sweetheart says to me; don't give up, don't let challenges bring you down and all that sort is something that I know, something that I can think of. Maybe all  I need is some sort of reassurance and support so that I won't stop myself from doing what I really long to do and this is what I want and I must work for it and it is not impossible. I think that's a function of the ones you love. They support, advice, motivate and even scold you to make it a better person, to help you to achieve your dream. So here I would like once again to thank all individuals that giving me support and especially to my sayang. HOW on earth you can be soooo optimistic? It's annoying sometimes. If it wasn't for you I might be sitting there at the dinner table still wishing that I am the one emceeing the ceremony. So thank you and love you :)

So this is me last year just taking pictures with the emcee, and on the right is me emceeing with him.

Dream come true ey?

This is my chubby, supportive, optimistic sweetheart 

I put your picture in my blog so BE PROUD now... hahaha

Another piece of me

It is supposed to be from me... Nevertheless,

Assalamualaikum and hello again everyone. Yes, I'm here quite soon. Just want to share my masterpiece again. I'm suppose to study right now since I'm having test on Monday and there are loads of cases that I need to remember. So yeah, as usual, who on earth got the mood to study when the time is set right? Maybe there are people that need a specific time to study. But that don't work that well for me. As for me, when the time come I will work my ass of. Not very good though. What if the time comes when it is too late? Yikes!

Anyways, I think I need to take my shower. Hopefully the mood comes rolling down to me.

Here's my 'The Big Golden Cat'. Using soft pastel. Love it to the max.

Until the next post.

Regards,
addiction.

Burung hantu

Omputeh kata OWL.

Salam and hello everyone. Lama dah tak blogging... *tiup habuk. Now I'm back just to keep it updated. Yes, as you all know, well, maybe some of you don't, I am really into sketching/drawing/painting and anything to do with that la. So I have produce a few artworks. Mainly drawing of cartoons and of course I asked people around to get their feedback. Most of them say 'okay', 'cantik'. If you want to see my artwork you guys can check out my instagram: hannasaif. So yeah, day by day, i love it more and more. I have one sketch book (the old one) and new sketching notebook which on the cover I wrote 'Inspire' in my very own cursive writing :P I also save whatever idea that comes to my mind in my phone memo. I collected all the material/tools/medium (i don't know what is the correct term) whatever you called it, it is my dear,dear,dear colour pencils, oil pastels, soft pastels, coloured pens and markers and water colours :3 I love them to infinity and beyond. To relate to the title, I have drawn an owl with graduation hat on and i dubbed this owl as 'Intelligent Owl'. This drawing is dedicated to my soon graduating sister. Tahniah!!!! Congratulations!!!

It's not perfect but still lovable :3

Last week, I went to Malacca. It was a last minute plan. 5 of us. We had fun. I had the chance to go to Muzium Kesultanan Melaka. Yes, after 21 years live as Malaysian, I finally visit the museum. We did some shopping, food hunting and sight-seeing.  I bought pareo (long piece of cloth that you can tie into various fashion). Been wanting that for so long and finally got it. Yeay me~!! I didn't really wear it though. I use it as a blanket ;P

Yesterday, I got the chance to be the emcee for prestigious MMU Awards 2013. Yeay me again :3 I've been longed to be one since I attended the last year's ceremony. Thank you to individuals that giving me this opportunity and support to pursue my small ambition. Gracias~!!! I get some compliment and  good advice from my emcee partner, Rishi, abang2 teknikal, Encik Omar, my sayang and others. Not bad for a first timer ey? My gold skirt is my mom's. (Psstt, it's her wedding skirt). I am honored to wear it on my important day Mama~! Thank you.

Me and Rishi

And the gold skirt (suits the theme: black and gold. Me on the far left)

As much as I like to be in the spotlight, I also love working backstage. Dan impian tercapai juga when I became one of the stage management crew for MMU's own Puteri Gunung Ledang Musical organize by SAKTI. Not only that, since they are shorts of extras, they want me to be the extra for a few scenes. So, I get to be on the stage and all over it. Wee! I love the experience, the good and the bad of it, the acquaintance that I made. But I still don't get the chance to hold the walkie talkie. Next event perhaps, yes.

In short, dreams come true. Alhamdulillah :3 The awesomest week evah!

Until the next post. Take care :)

Regards,
F.

monday morning

Yellow :) another comic strip for you guys. enjoy :)) pictures; credit goes to mkAPz

So soon

I'm back~!!! Hehe... Holiday maa... and nak lepas rindu katakan. So petang tadi I exercise my right-side brain and came out with this:

Hehe.. ada banyak lagi lepas ni. These are all my university friends.

Until the next post :)

And...

XOXO,
F.

February post

Salam. Hi J Today is one of my unproductive days. So, I thought I might just want to write about it so that I will feel better. I miss blogging and I don’t do it much recently. Yes, it is because of the laptop keyboard. Don’t really like typing with this one. But I did. I can’t bear not typing this any longer. I might get a new laptop when new semester started. Or the latest, during the next academic year. It is currently during the exam week in MMU. So yeah, I have 3 more papers to go. One had disappointed me. Like really, really bad. I really thought that I can nail that one since 2 out of 3 coming papers are really difficult. But my strategy went plummet. And my back up plan is? Yeah, nail the other 3 papers and by that I mean crack your head now before you crack your heart later. Right? Spanish paper was the first but that doesn’t really count much as it is pass or fail subject. I can fathom Spanish quite well. Si, como no J *pray that I pass.

So now, I am SUPPOSED to revise like nobody business but I end up editing my own picture J Jyeaaahhhhhh. #likeaboss. Edited picture is for private view only. Sorry. Not that nice though. I am amateur editor. I don’t have that sharp skill in editing but I take this as my start.  Since I can’t show you the picture I’ve edited just now, here’s   a masterpiece of mine that I’ve edited 2 years back. It was for my computer application II assignment for my website. J I love art.

I am a happy child again. Until next post peeps. Assalamualaikum

p/s: oh and it's February ;) winkwink

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The First Entry for 2013

Bismillahhirrahmanirrahim :)

Salam everyone. Tak nak tulis banyak pun. Just want to share something with you guys. Something that I grew fond of lately. It gives me satisfaction as much as when I am writing my blog.

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Itu saje. Have a happy new year~!

Hols

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)
How's everybody been doing. Things have been pretty hectic for me. I'm working on an event and I have to make sure everything runs smoothly. And I must stick to it to the end. You know me and my doing-things-halfway. I guess it is time for me to break the habit. Tension juga rasanya >.<" Like it or not I MUST do it. Wish me luck :)

Liana is going to sit for PMR tomorrow. So all the best dear Liana you have work for it and it's time for tawakal. Just remember whatever happens you have done your revision and exercises. You have done your part. Yang lain tu beserah kepada Allah. InsyaAllah kalau sudah usaha, Allah tak akan mensia-siakan usaha dan doa Liana. Same goes to other PMR-ians. Fighting! :)

Ok... Whatelse... Hmm... I've been working on a mini jigsaw puzzle. It's just bsjdjjshskdiwi. Hahaha. It trains your focus and patient and your eye-sight and anything to do with small details..hee. And I am going to complete it. Hell yeah! ^.^v

Owh that orange cat I told you in one of my previous post, yeah he never made it. But he was getting better. We took him to the vet. And the vet gave him injection and clean him up. So as we all thought, this time is going to be okay. But no, again. :,( So sad. My mom said he was good. If he wanted to eat he sat by the kitchen cabinet. And when he needs to pee he went to the toilet. Maybe he was trained by his 'family' before this. So, yeah.. He just... Died. Seriously. We think that he already being infected by virus and cannot be cured. :(

Btw his name is Awang.

And from that day on, I just don't want to take care of cat anymore. They somehow just die 'in my arms'. However, that's just only me. During the exam week mama called me and said 'hey we got a new cat' and I was like NNNNOOOO. The cat is white and so we call him Putih. Naive, cute and manja and kampung sikit. Haha. Dah besar dah kucing ni. My cousin give it to my brother. Dia yg tergedik-gedik sgt nak kucing.

I didn't bring my toolbox back. So i guess it's just going to be work, tv/movie and cooking and like always, being a housewife (a lazy one).

Alrite. That's all for this time. I'll see you in the next post.

Love,
Farhana

Say My Name

Awww... So sweet sayang. Main game pun teringat saya ^.^

Here I am again

Bersempena Royal Visit Prince William dan Kate Middleton ke Malaysia dan Sabah especially, saya persembahkan lagu...

This is my second post about them... Hehe

Tak nak cakap pasal mereka pun sebenarnya. Saja nak cakap rindu Sabah. especially Tambunan dan adik-adik di rumah anak yatim Tambunan. :') Tempatnya sejuk (lagi sejuk dari Cameron Highland) dan sangat peaceful. The last time I went to Sabah is when I was 12 years old. Waktu tu pun macam sedar tak sedar... Hahaha. Waktu kat Sabah you tend to speak like them. I have to admit susah juga la nak communicate tapi boleh juga la faham. Pegi waktu bulan puasa haritu for Sekolah@MMU Sabah II & Ihya' Ramadan. Terima kasih adik-adik kerana sudi beri kerjasama dengan abang-abang dan kakak-kakak. Penat kan puasa tapi masih semangat. Sayang adik-adik :) InsyaAllah nanti kakak visit Tambunan lagi. 

Bukan gambar tampal ye belakang tu tapi bukan gunung Kinabalu

Do you feel like blogging?

Because I do. Yes as you guess it... It's my stress time (final is around the corner). No, I'm not stress. I am stress because I'm not stress. Y U NO STRESS? Some of you think it's might be a good thing rite? It is but at times like this it is not. Anyways, I am still stress that I'm not stress. So I am stressed out. Enough.

I just cut my fingernails (itu pun nak cite) and every time I type rasa sakit kat hujung tu. Penah rasa tak? And keyboard ni tak sedap. I use keyboard spare tu since my laptop punya rosak. Masuk air... Hujan tak tutup tingkap... Aigoo. Jadi shot la kot. Huruf G, H, backspace, print screen tak leh pakai. Annoying. Rosak waktu assignment tengah melambak. Imagine my assignment tu kan tulis orang putih dan betapa banyaknya perkataan 'the' tu kena tulis. Siapkan sume dulu pastu tambah huruf H kemudiannya pakai on-screen keyboard. =.=" huuu... tapi takpe la... Damage has been done. Move on ye cik adik, move on.

I don't know what to write actually but I just feel like writing. This evening I confused lemon grass and grass jelly. I thought cincau is the lemon grass.. Whaa..??? Anyways, petang tadi, i mean for lunch i had this pasembor penang and cendol. Sedap la jugak. You guys know kan im not very fond of eating so sorry if i said it's 'sedap la jugak' when it is suppose to be 'sedap gila'.

Hmmm... What to write next? MMU boring.. Haha.. Tetibe.. Lololol. Mama ckp ni symptom tak balik rumah during the weekend. Hmmm.. Ada open house dan kononnya nak study. Konon la ada la jgk sikit. Dalam 10%?? Hee.. Huu.. Adoyai.. Ok mood please datang. Please please please i beg you. This morning my brother called and he said 'Kak Far! Ada anak kucing baru' and I was like not again... Bukan serik tapi takut sedih lagi.

Before raya ada these two kittens kat belakang rumah. Jumpa on a different day. Nama mereka Kecik & Bulat. Dua2 sudah tiada :'\ Bermula pertemuan bersama Kecik di belakang rumah, dalam longkang, right before sebelum nak buka puasa. Kesian Kecik... basah dan kesejukan. Cute face dia dan bunyi bising leads to a rescue mission. Bulat pula, duduk sendirian sambil meng-eooww pada pukul 7 pagi. Kes yang sama... muka yang comel dan bunyi bising menyebabkan kami selamatkan dia. Letak diorang sekali dalam satu box. And then we were like aaawww... adik beradik because both pun same color. Sampai sekarang tak tahu jantan ke betina. Macam too small to tell. Lolz. Kitorang ada jugak letak kat belakang rumah mana la tau mak dia datang kutip tapi kucing-kucing kat belakang tu sekor pun tak nak mengaku anak. Sheesh...

Tak tahu kenapa sayang sangat kat dua2 ekor ni. Bila pkir pemergian diorang ni boleh rasa sebak yang teramat sangat dan tidak impossible boleh menitiskan air mata. Mungkin jumpa time raya agaknya. Pemeriah suasana la katakan. Bawa balik Alor Staq tau diorg ni... haaa.. hebat tak? Kecik2 dah travel. Mungkin juga saya rasa mereka ni ada harapan untuk besar dan jadi a part of the family (they already did). Mama and abah sangat supportive. Mama siap suruh beli bottle. And they also take turn susukan the kittens. They said mcm ada anak kecik pulak. So yeah, I really want a future with the cute little kittens. Tapi apa kan daya, Allah lebih mencintai mereka. :'\

Mula2 Bulat mati dulu. Lepas tu Kecik. Tak tahu apa sebabnya. Mungkin demam kot. Memang menangis gila dan murung je hari Kecik pegi tu. I was thinking what went wrong, did I hurt them in any way and I fikir that I can't see them ever again and tak dapat tengok diorang membesar. :'\ It's very hard for me to deal with the loss and it takes sometime for me to let them go. Now ada anak kucing baru pulak. Abah jumpa dekat tgh jalan waktu nak balik ke rumah from masjid. Nasib baik tak terlanggar... ambil la bawa balik rumah. Dan hati saya meraung 'kenapa..???' hahaha.. over. Ish tak baik betul, rasa macam menyalahkan takdir pula. Astaghfirullah. So yeah, kucing baru ni warna jingga,lupa namanya apa.. Liana dah bagi nama dah. Tapi matanya tak bukak and dia tak meow sgt. Kalau eoow pun pelan je bunyi. Katanya abah nak bawa pegi vet. Hopefully everything goes well. Kucing baru ni besar sikit dari Kecik & Bulat so dah boleh bg biskut la kot. Tak kecik sangat so tak perlu la risau sangat nak bagi makan apa.. ye tak?

Esok baru nak balik rumah nak jumpa si oren. hee...

Itu saja for this post. See you in the next post.

Comel kan? Kecik

Yin and Yang. Kan dah kata adik beradik

Playing outside di Alor Star.

Dah pandai keluar box :')

Ada video lagi... Mana tak sedih.

quick post

 

Credit  to all the little ones in the picture. they take turn snapping the pictures above :)

Not perfect but still beautiful.