When in doubt

When in doubt, write.

It doesn't really solve things but it makes you feel better.

Of course then there is istikharah and all :)

Try it. You might writes your woes away.

#first2017

Assalamualaikum and Hello again everyone~!!!

Hahaha... The last time i wrote a post was mid-last year. But i do write a few more, it's just that i didn't post it. It was some heart-pouring thing where common sense are nowhere to be seen. Hahaha. But I'm okay now. Well at least for NOW. I hope i'm going to be okay for the rest of the year. So here I am indulging in my passion again. Typing, writing, posting or whatever :).

Second of all I would like to wish everyone a Happy 2017~!!! It's not too late yet compared to when i post last year X'D So this year i am better because it is only March so yeay me! Of course my new year's resolution is to write as much as possible (like every other year's resolution) but this time I am aiming for once a month post. So i can sum up what happen during the month and my blog is not dead and i can make myself happy by writing my blog again. It's been a good 7 years having this blog and i don't want it to go to nothing. It is a commitment that i made and i enjoy it and i love it still and it has a special place in my heart. I couldn't careless if not many people read it (is there any people read blog nowadays?) as long as i can write. There! Haha.

I've been thinking about plan writing this post and a few post for a long time now. But that remains that. It's just in my head. I was busy with work or something else. Or maybe it's just really i don't set a time to do it (plan failure alert!). I'm half blaming social media for this...Hahaha. Because I was so distracted by it and I couldn't help myself checking it frequently and didn't really do what I wish/plan to do because half of my time im on social media and other half is eat, sleep, work, shower and all that. Am I addicted to it? Probably just minor XD but the fact that i can't have control over my emotion after i'm browsing it just so disappointing.

I am mostly active on Twitter and Instagram and I always felt disturbed after scrolling down Twitter because sometimes it's just too negative for me because people are hating on each other, bashing people for a small thing and people make a joke out of something serious and vice versa (this is particularly for Malaysian Twitter community though I think anywhere else are just as same) and gosh people looovveeee, just loooovvveee, big capital L Loveee to give their opinion on things. Some are just "experts" on everything and must give opinion on everything and their misplaced sarcasm on issues. Well please save 'em for something that needs your sarcasm. You are not being cool being sarcastic all the time. Sometimes it's just annoying. Geez.

And as for Instagram, I always felt overwhelmed after i scroll through. You know they say that it is all filtered and not as happy as they seem on it. But i didn't see the unhappy part so i can't lie to my brain. And not that im not happy seeing other people happy but i can't help compared myself to them and feel that you are not successful enough, rich enough or even CREATIVE enough or in summary you try to count your blessing but still wanting more. So that made me unhappy and even demotivated. I got distracted at work and constantly think I was not meant for this job, i don't like it and i was meant to be some artist painting on abstract piece for postcards and greetings card. Which I haven't done any of those because all this while i only scrolling for ideas but never really DID it.

So i logged out from both twitter and instagram. Just for a while because i feel that i feel demotivated at work because of all these and yes sadly i can't control how i react to them. Some people just can scroll through and without having any impact on their life (that's my elder sister). So by logging out i hope that i can focus on my current work (though in time i would like to work on something else) and do what i really want to do or love to do. If i still cant do that then maybe that is because of something else. Right now it is quite evident because i have more time to blog and spring clean my room. But i'm still on facebook but i think facebook it not as impactful or distrcting as twitter and ig for me. At least it is varied (in some way...hahaha). OMG! I feel old when i said that XD.

I hope i can logged out as long as I possibly can. It's been only three or four days but it feels like forever. Until I learn how to deal with it, i think im better off without it so that i can focus on my work and my study. Oh the fidgety feeling i got when i always wants to check it. I caught myself wanting to check my phone every 2 minutes (see that's why i can't focus) and always reached out for my phone. My hands are just on auto-pilot. Just when i logged out twitter i feel that i'll be missing out on the news because my news source is that but i can just google it so no worries. Hahaha. I still youtubed though. Is youtube a social media? Can be distracting but no overwhelmed feelings. So okay... XD

Without my main social media I hope that i can blog more, do art more or at least planning for it (I'm still learning how to plan things in life) because life before this is as smooth AF. I really and consciously feel that I have come to that challenging age where i really learn a lot and reflect back on myself and just might change me, change how behave and how i do things, appreciate people and just to embrace life with an open heart and mind. InsyaAllah.

This very moment of typing this makes me so happy and it is satisfying feeling of accomplishment.

I hope and wish and pray I can do more of this.

Best Regards,

F.

Warts and all

By the time we get together, we will be all bruises and stitches. 

You really don't know 'warts' until some point in a relationship. It is really ugly. Sometimes you can barely handle it. I think I've been in 'romantic' stage all this while. Then grad happened. No, distance comes first. Then plenty of leisure time (unemployment), that my evil mind has most of the time take over. And then, things got messed up. I finally see 'warts'. It is ugly and most of the time I can barely handle it. That even demotivate me further. But you just don't leave when things got bitter right? So currently I still trying to pour some sugar in, both of us.

I just wish I don't complicate things, no second thoughts like I always have in almost everything and got me on my nerve. At the same time I don't want to be upset with myself, thinking negative about me all the time. I want to accept my weaknesses, embrace it dearly and then tell them to go. Dang, it's really hard... I wish I don't look at things too far ahead and try 'connect the dots' when they are barely there. There are no dots, just a few. And it's not the time for me to look backward just yet. Calling for guts.

We both in quicksand, sinking despite trying to save each other. I was supposed to be at safer area, but... I'm sinking more quickly than the other. 

i  a m  s     i      n     k      i           n              g                       .                  .                  .      

Saying it

Sometimes it is best not to say I love you to someone you love because it never measure up to how you really love that person. It more than just words typed in your message or said that pleasing the ears, it is even more than the feeling that is supposed to entails. The person being said to never really feel the same 'love' that you are feeling. He/she would probably just reply 'i love you too' because that they are supposed to do.

At this point you don't even want the reply because it is NOT the same. It is the love that you do not want to tell because it is just for you to know how you really really truly love the person and pray to God that 'i really love that person more than words can ever describe. Take care of him/her for me.' Therefore, it is sincere.

love,
F.

Congratulations! (Long post. You got time? Cool.)

I would like to congratulate myself on my Convocation recently. To mama and abah also. I made it finally! Alhamdulillah. After 5 years of hardship and ranting and ups and downs my university life has finally come to the end. *there's something in my eyes*. Well, it is always a mixed feeling. I am glad that I made it through but at the same time, I am still going to miss my student life. 5 years went so fast. As long as I can remember, I still have not done my tutorials properly. It's either I did it at the eleventh hour or I can never get it right. So much to do but so little time. I think that it was some sort of motto I live in during uni days. HAHAHA. Of course nobody else was to blame except for me. I get myself busy with co-curricular activities. Hence, the race against time. I also have this resolution of getting As for my subject and study as hard and as smart as I can so that I can improve my pointer when it comes to new semester. Yeap as you have guessed and I have guessed when it comes in the middle of the semester, I can only be thankful if I pass all the subjects at the end of the sem. Getting As would be a bonus. HAHAHA. I have my regrets but I am thankful for so much other things in my life.

My participation in co-curricular activities in one of the things that I am happy with. I always enjoy life outside classroom. Heeee. I remember my mom told me I don't want to do my homework at the age of 7 (if I'm not wrong) because I told her I am smart and I already know that. Well, I have to write my ABCs repeatedly when I already know my ABCs since I was 3. Make sense why I don't want to do my homework yes? But in Uni case, I told myself that I can only love and do Accounting that much and any extra work done would be pointless because I will still not be able to score more. Sometimes I want to beat myself so hard because I have limited myself. But anyhow, that was the decision I made. So I have to live with it. SO, back to co-curricular activities, Sekretariat Sekolah@MMU was my platform to get into all the event management things. I have learnt a lot from here - teamwork, friendship, relationship - you name it. Though I do not participate in it anymore, it is still dear to me. All the best to the legacy.

I wish all those who graduated best in career and life. And for my friends hope that we keep in touch and see you soon. InsyaAllah.

Love,
Farhana.

I just want to write everything but it's all kinda choppy. Gaahhhh.. Come back writing skills! I need ya.

Howdy Do?

Heeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy there :) Hugs and kisses. I miss this. Long time no?

I HAVE to do this. I have to write, I have to blog. I feel my writing skill has gone really bad. It's hard for me to construct a proper sentence. I've mentioned this before right? I feel that the words are clogged inside my head and my fingers freeze when I wanted to write them because it's HARD~!!! Anyways here's to a new start. Hopefully I'll be consistent. Lol. Hmmm... So what's up?

I have finally graduated after 5 struggling years in Uni. Yeay me :) What? Wait... Struggling ke? Hahaha... Yes of course! But it was fun though. Although I have experienced a little bit of bitterness every now and then, it was normal peeps. Life is full of ups and downs right? Now I am currently looking for jobs. Hope that I get lucky ;)

So both of my younger sister and brother has all grown up. One is taller than me but me don't care that much because I am tall (enough). I still somehow maintained my weight though. Still underweight. 5 years and still in my 40s. I think I can hardly do anything about it. My brother, I expect him to be taller than me and I'm not surprised if it is in a few months. He is currently in Perlis, memorizing the holy Quran at one of tahfiz schools there. He feels that our education system is not challenging enough and hence, he seeks adventure there. My younger sister is going to continue her study in Uni soon. Awww... My younger siblings are all grown up and I want to cry now. May Allah ease their journey obtaining knowledge. My one and only older sister is currently working in KL in a development company. It's everything that she wants from a company. Lucky her!

So my parents are awesome as always. Getting older but still blessed with good health and happy marriage. Alhamdulillah :) And... they keep asking me to find work. Hahaha. It's not that I'm not finding one. But really slowly. Hey I went to career fair, if that wasn't good enough. I want to stay at home for a longer time since I was so busy with exams, assignment and event during the sem break. So yeah... I'm here mom and dad, if you need me! After this Im going out again ;) So better use me while I'm available ;P

Me and Khairul, we are boring and awesome as always. We are currently, if you may, in a long distance relationship (Subang Jaya - Cyberjaya) ;P. Got to see each other at least once a week or whenever we wanted to. Lol. He's currently doing his fyp and since I'm still looking for jobs, weekdays are still available for meet up. Miss seeing him everyday though. Friends are great. Some of them already landed a job. We still contact through Whatsapp but catch up sesh is kinda hard and only during weekends. But we gonna see each other during convocation sooonn :)

So that's about it for now. I know it's waaaayyyy to late but I would like to wish Muslims around the world happy Eid ul Fitri. May Allah bless us always.

Last but not least, I would like to pat myself on the back for typing this whole new post. :) More are coming insyaAllah.

Love,
F.

Happy New Year!!!

Omg I just found myself a new year resolution. Write more in blog! That's it. I hope I can do it. My writing sucks nowadays. I think it is due to a lot of tweeting and facebooking. You only have to write short sentence. You don't have to think so much about the sentence structure.

So okay! All the best to me. May Allah ease and may my writing be beneficial to everyone that reads it insyaAllah.

Love,
Farhana :)

This is love

Ain't it? Oh if I can only hug this virtual thing tightly, I would. I miss blogging big time! I can feel my heart is blooming. It's like falling in love all over again :)

When it only amount to this

I don't really like having dispute with people. I don't like to pick up fight with anyone except Khairul. Hahaha. Joke. I don't like it  now more because it will hurt my jaw every time I think of the moment I get hurt with people's remarks or what they have done or not done to me. Yes, hurt my jaw. Rasa lenguh. Because I often clinch my teeth when I'm stress. Thinking of it making me stress and... woa wait! Im going in circle explaining... Never mind. IT's just HURT physically and mentally. Period.

What is more frustrating is that the urge want to stand up for myself or to hurt them back only amount to this: writing in blog which not that those people follow me or read my blog. Is there anyone still reading my blog? Haha. It's like I'm scolding my teddy bear and the only thing he do is keep smiling and all those yelling and screaming and explaining to him only gives me minimal satisfaction. Ouh how I love to scream out those foul words to them and hurt them back. But then again, I don't like having dispute with people. What would happen to my image if I responded like a mad person. No I don't like it either. And even if I would explain it in a well manner, things not going to be the same again. I'm afraid of jeopardizing relationship I guess. Hmmm... And the other thing that I usually did was told Khairul about it. I told him the exact words I'm going to said to the person I'm discontent with - if i'm ever going to tell.

So, I just can't really you know fight back. Maybe because I think the outcome will always be negative. If the outcome is positive would it be a waste not to response back. I did response. But very diplomatically.

So here it goes:

1) Please open your eyes and heart and know me better. ;) You'll be glad that I'm not the one that cares (to those kind of thing). I'm not kepoci. Seriously, I have a humongous number of things to do that makes me happy rather then search for stories to tell. The fact that I DON'T EVEN tell stories. I only joke around with you and it seems to me that you're the filler and I just play along, the killer, the puncher. Masih diplomatik. Haha. My policy is if people want to tell me anything I listen and JUST listen. If people don't want to share their stories, even if I know about it briefly, I won't force them to tell. It's their right to remain silence about it. Maybe before you point out flaws to other people, you can reflect your self first. Sometimes the root to the problem is you yourself :)

2) The previous sem is hard and challenging and I can assure you that I really have worked for it. For me the result is satisfying, more than I expected. Ouh if you could only share the fear with me. I know it's NOT A LOT well for you. Don't you feel like asking how is it for me? For me it's A LOT. A simple encouraging remarks would do. And I don't really ask for rewards. Things. If you want to give that really all up to you. I'm not asking. I only ask for meaningful support. That's it. I'm simple like that and you guys more than any other person knows that. Love you guys, nevertheless.

3) Please don't mind I'm not eating with you, accompany you every where, or not doing something with you. I'm like this. I move fast and independent. I don't want people to follow me and I can't stick to other people's schedule because I have a plan of my own. If you want me you then have to keep up. Well, that sounds harsh no? Let's just say that I have my own plan. Yes, I'm aware of the boyfriend issue. I would love each and every one of you to have your love ones nearby. And and and tell me if you don't want to see him everyday when he's just next door, okay? Apart from that, I will try do my best to spend time with you guys okay? ^.^v

And sadly, it only amount to this.

Regards,
Fana Ayam.

Haaaa lidaaaayyyyy

Yeppie :) 3 weeks holiday. Rasa MMU macam generous pulak bagi cuti banyak2..hewhew :3 Anyways, the first week dah habis sebab join event. Same old same old yet special Sekolah@MMU. This time dekat Kelantan. Akhirnya, saya dah conquer satu peninsular setelah 21 tahun hidup di bumi Malaysia ni. Next stop Sarawak.

Cadangnya sekarang nak lipat kain. Sambil tengok movie/pasang lagu kat laptop. Tapi kebiasaan la kan kalau bukak laptop tu susah nak move on buat benda lain. So end up check out fb/twitter yang dah setahu... sehari je tak bukak. lama la jugak tu kan sebab during semester almost 24 hours bukak laptop study/assignment punya pasai. Lepas tu blogging sbb dah lama tak blog. I can never really function when there is people around. Sometimes. So tak jadi lipat kain. Esok je la jawabnya... Esok kena:

Beli groceries
Basuh kain
Lipat kain
Sort and buang buku

Cakap pasal buku, baru sekarang boleh lepas rindu baca novel. I love my sweet sweet sweet time cuddling with books (bukan buku teks). Sebab rindu ni la habis tergendala all the house chores. Rindu sangat. So say whatever to house chores... Hahaha. Cuti ni habis satu novel pun okay. Dari bila entah asyik bukak novel baru... baca separuh jalan lepas tu tinggal. and then repeat. So azam cuti ni habis kan novel. Sebuah je... I miss painting, sketching as well :/ Tapi tak bawak balik barang2 pun sebab tau tak kan sempat punya buat di rumah. So bawak balik my 'inspire' spiral notebook tu je and a pen.

Masa lain plan nak buat spring cleaning. PLAN. In sha Allah buat. Just clean almari buku je. So yeah. No biggie. Tapi takut distracted pulak. Anyways, tadi saya dapat idea nak buat notebooks. mcm vintage like note book. :3 yeay me. kita tgk nnt berhasil ke tak. tak sabar.

Okay nak pi tidoq kan adik2. Walaupun dah besar still kena teman kan tido. So what I do usually saya akan ceritakan kisah Pak Musang and Mak Ayam. Classic. Tak tau korang tahu ke tak. The same story everytime diorang nak tido. Mcm bonding session sebelum tido. Walaupun cerita yang sama saya ubah sikit2 ikut keadaan semasa. im cool liddat ^.^v

Ok peeps. Toodles :3

Stop stoping

Salam and hello everyone.

Sitting here on my 'bed' - my travelling mat and typing this. My comforting moment would be when I Imagine or for real sitting comfortably in a couch, my hair tied up into a bun and the fringe decorate my forehead, touches the frame of my spectacle. With my favorite book cupped in my hands. I feel geeky and cute already :P Accompanied by a mug of hot chocolate. Very winter-ish. I enjoy letting my thoughts have their own way for a while, let my imagination running wild.When I do this recently, with no book in my hands, just lie down staring at the wall, a thought came to me that what's really stopping you from doing something is you yourself. 

Take me for example. Last two weeks I have given a chance to be an emcee for a grand award giving ceremony. As I mentioned in previous post, I have been longing to be the emcee for the ceremony since I attended the last year award giving ceremony. So this year, it's like a dream comes true. I got the offer. But at first I hesitant (can you believe that?). I've been wanting it for so long and I hesitated. Annoying much. Reason being, it's far too late (not sure for what). I got the offer 4 days before the event day. I even said to a friend that I readily to give up the offer because it is far too late to... be prepared I guess. And plus I don't have appropriate dress to wear. So yeah I guess, 4 days is not enough for me to find the right dress. Pfft. Diva much. Hahaha. But yeah, because I have another event in the same week, so I have to be at the grand hall for rehearsal. So no time for me to search for the right dress. Yeah, I have to be there all the time and no time to go anywhere because I am too dedicated (read with sarcasm)...lol. In short, I'm still thinking about the offer but I'm ready to give up. I really have that problem of wanting something so much and in the end, when I can get that thing, I give it up. Problem much. Much much.

But then, I talked this over with my sweetheart. He said that not to worry about the dress and he said that I have that thing in me, being an emcee. And yes I normally doubted myself. He reminds me that I wanted this so much since last year and don't let this petty things get in a way or I will regret for giving it up. He said, we will find time to find the right dress for the ceremony. And we did. And my mom & dad drive all the way from Subang to deliver her gold skirt for me to wear for the ceremony. My sayang also mentioned, don't be afraid of screwing things up (not badly) just normal mistake for a first timer like me and don't be hard on yourself if screws happens...Haha. Kind of first time for me for emceeing big event like this in university. I used to be emcee at high school for quite a number of events; Teacher's Day and that sorts. In the end, I take up the offer. And so there was I on Friday evening at the grand hall, again, for rehearsal. So I met my emcee partner and I started to feel inferior. I saw him last year and he was good. He has this big afro hair and I think that's an extra feature to appear more charismatic and firendly.I don't really have 'extra feature' and I am so thin I'm afraid that they might confuse me with a mic stand during the ceremony...lol. Exegerate much. I get nervous during the rehearsal, tongue tied so people keep asking me to relax. But they are making me more nervous. :S

So that night, I freaked out a little. Okay, I cried over the phone with my sayang and yeah I was sad because of something else too. I wanted to follow my parents to Australia for my sister graduation. So I cried. And I think the shawl doesn't match with the skirt. I feel inferior because I'm not good as my emcee partner. So I'm afraid I ruined the ceremony. Worries much. In my own Malay term I called this as 'serabut' which literally means messy but for me it means there's a lot of things that I'm thinking of and then I worry too much. Sayang said calm down, and I'm thinking too much. If my emcee partner is good then get advice or tips from him how to be a good emcee and observe him, learn from him. And so, I took the advice but still worried a little. So Saturday comes; day, rehearsal, night, the ceremony commence. And Alhamdulillah I did pretty well - I give myself 3 out of 5 stars. Some said that I did pretty well as a first timer :3. And my shawl suits the skirt and I did not end up wearing all black with gold shawl. I did my own make-up, fyi :3 In the end, interesting experience, dreams come true, not give up the thing that I wanted so much. Self enrichment. It really boost my confidence to try new things.

To point out, whatever my sweetheart says to me; don't give up, don't let challenges bring you down and all that sort is something that I know, something that I can think of. Maybe all  I need is some sort of reassurance and support so that I won't stop myself from doing what I really long to do and this is what I want and I must work for it and it is not impossible. I think that's a function of the ones you love. They support, advice, motivate and even scold you to make it a better person, to help you to achieve your dream. So here I would like once again to thank all individuals that giving me support and especially to my sayang. HOW on earth you can be soooo optimistic? It's annoying sometimes. If it wasn't for you I might be sitting there at the dinner table still wishing that I am the one emceeing the ceremony. So thank you and love you :)

So this is me last year just taking pictures with the emcee, and on the right is me emceeing with him.

Dream come true ey?

This is my chubby, supportive, optimistic sweetheart 

I put your picture in my blog so BE PROUD now... hahaha

Burung hantu

Omputeh kata OWL.

Salam and hello everyone. Lama dah tak blogging... *tiup habuk. Now I'm back just to keep it updated. Yes, as you all know, well, maybe some of you don't, I am really into sketching/drawing/painting and anything to do with that la. So I have produce a few artworks. Mainly drawing of cartoons and of course I asked people around to get their feedback. Most of them say 'okay', 'cantik'. If you want to see my artwork you guys can check out my instagram: hannasaif. So yeah, day by day, i love it more and more. I have one sketch book (the old one) and new sketching notebook which on the cover I wrote 'Inspire' in my very own cursive writing :P I also save whatever idea that comes to my mind in my phone memo. I collected all the material/tools/medium (i don't know what is the correct term) whatever you called it, it is my dear,dear,dear colour pencils, oil pastels, soft pastels, coloured pens and markers and water colours :3 I love them to infinity and beyond. To relate to the title, I have drawn an owl with graduation hat on and i dubbed this owl as 'Intelligent Owl'. This drawing is dedicated to my soon graduating sister. Tahniah!!!! Congratulations!!!

It's not perfect but still lovable :3

Last week, I went to Malacca. It was a last minute plan. 5 of us. We had fun. I had the chance to go to Muzium Kesultanan Melaka. Yes, after 21 years live as Malaysian, I finally visit the museum. We did some shopping, food hunting and sight-seeing.  I bought pareo (long piece of cloth that you can tie into various fashion). Been wanting that for so long and finally got it. Yeay me~!! I didn't really wear it though. I use it as a blanket ;P

Yesterday, I got the chance to be the emcee for prestigious MMU Awards 2013. Yeay me again :3 I've been longed to be one since I attended the last year's ceremony. Thank you to individuals that giving me this opportunity and support to pursue my small ambition. Gracias~!!! I get some compliment and  good advice from my emcee partner, Rishi, abang2 teknikal, Encik Omar, my sayang and others. Not bad for a first timer ey? My gold skirt is my mom's. (Psstt, it's her wedding skirt). I am honored to wear it on my important day Mama~! Thank you.

Me and Rishi

And the gold skirt (suits the theme: black and gold. Me on the far left)

As much as I like to be in the spotlight, I also love working backstage. Dan impian tercapai juga when I became one of the stage management crew for MMU's own Puteri Gunung Ledang Musical organize by SAKTI. Not only that, since they are shorts of extras, they want me to be the extra for a few scenes. So, I get to be on the stage and all over it. Wee! I love the experience, the good and the bad of it, the acquaintance that I made. But I still don't get the chance to hold the walkie talkie. Next event perhaps, yes.

In short, dreams come true. Alhamdulillah :3 The awesomest week evah!

Until the next post. Take care :)

Regards,
F.

Begin again

Assalamualaikum and hello people.

Writing from my newly bought laptop. No external keyboard anymore :) This is heaven. Yeay!

See you in the next post. 

Merah

Ye itu lah warna kegemaran saya. I used to loathe red before. Tetapi citarasa boleh berubah, jadi sekarang saya amat menyukai warna garang ini. Waaahhh.. dah macam ayat dalam majalah InTrend..hoho. So, sebab saya ni suka jawab personality test (dan dari pelbagai aspek) I have came out across this:

Red: The color of strength, health, and vitality. Red is often the color chosen by someone outgoing, aggressive, vigorous and impulsive—or someone who would like to be! It goes with an ambitious nature but those who choose it can be abrupt at times, determined to get all they can out of life, quick to judge people and take sides. Red people are usually optimistic and can’t stand monotony; they are rather restless and not at all introspective, so they may be unaware of their own shortcomings. They find it hard to be objective and may blame others for any mishaps. Quiet people with a preference for red may feel the need for the warmth, strength and life-giving qualities of the color, or they blanket their true feelings under a sober exterior. Red is usually chosen by people with open and uncomplicated natures, with a zest for life.

Most of it true for me. :3

Credit to: www.care2.com

monday morning

Yellow :) another comic strip for you guys. enjoy :)) pictures; credit goes to mkAPz

So soon

I'm back~!!! Hehe... Holiday maa... and nak lepas rindu katakan. So petang tadi I exercise my right-side brain and came out with this:

Hehe.. ada banyak lagi lepas ni. These are all my university friends.

Until the next post :)

And...

XOXO,
F.

:O

For every stroke my reaction was like:

No... Waaahh... Omg... I hate talented people... You seriously didn't just do that... *depress... *impress... Waaahh... *wondering what happens next.... Above all, superb! Thumbs up

Hols

Assalamualaikum and greetings :)
How's everybody been doing. Things have been pretty hectic for me. I'm working on an event and I have to make sure everything runs smoothly. And I must stick to it to the end. You know me and my doing-things-halfway. I guess it is time for me to break the habit. Tension juga rasanya >.<" Like it or not I MUST do it. Wish me luck :)

Liana is going to sit for PMR tomorrow. So all the best dear Liana you have work for it and it's time for tawakal. Just remember whatever happens you have done your revision and exercises. You have done your part. Yang lain tu beserah kepada Allah. InsyaAllah kalau sudah usaha, Allah tak akan mensia-siakan usaha dan doa Liana. Same goes to other PMR-ians. Fighting! :)

Ok... Whatelse... Hmm... I've been working on a mini jigsaw puzzle. It's just bsjdjjshskdiwi. Hahaha. It trains your focus and patient and your eye-sight and anything to do with small details..hee. And I am going to complete it. Hell yeah! ^.^v

Owh that orange cat I told you in one of my previous post, yeah he never made it. But he was getting better. We took him to the vet. And the vet gave him injection and clean him up. So as we all thought, this time is going to be okay. But no, again. :,( So sad. My mom said he was good. If he wanted to eat he sat by the kitchen cabinet. And when he needs to pee he went to the toilet. Maybe he was trained by his 'family' before this. So, yeah.. He just... Died. Seriously. We think that he already being infected by virus and cannot be cured. :(

Btw his name is Awang.

And from that day on, I just don't want to take care of cat anymore. They somehow just die 'in my arms'. However, that's just only me. During the exam week mama called me and said 'hey we got a new cat' and I was like NNNNOOOO. The cat is white and so we call him Putih. Naive, cute and manja and kampung sikit. Haha. Dah besar dah kucing ni. My cousin give it to my brother. Dia yg tergedik-gedik sgt nak kucing.

I didn't bring my toolbox back. So i guess it's just going to be work, tv/movie and cooking and like always, being a housewife (a lazy one).

Alrite. That's all for this time. I'll see you in the next post.

Love,
Farhana

Do you feel like blogging?

Because I do. Yes as you guess it... It's my stress time (final is around the corner). No, I'm not stress. I am stress because I'm not stress. Y U NO STRESS? Some of you think it's might be a good thing rite? It is but at times like this it is not. Anyways, I am still stress that I'm not stress. So I am stressed out. Enough.

I just cut my fingernails (itu pun nak cite) and every time I type rasa sakit kat hujung tu. Penah rasa tak? And keyboard ni tak sedap. I use keyboard spare tu since my laptop punya rosak. Masuk air... Hujan tak tutup tingkap... Aigoo. Jadi shot la kot. Huruf G, H, backspace, print screen tak leh pakai. Annoying. Rosak waktu assignment tengah melambak. Imagine my assignment tu kan tulis orang putih dan betapa banyaknya perkataan 'the' tu kena tulis. Siapkan sume dulu pastu tambah huruf H kemudiannya pakai on-screen keyboard. =.=" huuu... tapi takpe la... Damage has been done. Move on ye cik adik, move on.

I don't know what to write actually but I just feel like writing. This evening I confused lemon grass and grass jelly. I thought cincau is the lemon grass.. Whaa..??? Anyways, petang tadi, i mean for lunch i had this pasembor penang and cendol. Sedap la jugak. You guys know kan im not very fond of eating so sorry if i said it's 'sedap la jugak' when it is suppose to be 'sedap gila'.

Hmmm... What to write next? MMU boring.. Haha.. Tetibe.. Lololol. Mama ckp ni symptom tak balik rumah during the weekend. Hmmm.. Ada open house dan kononnya nak study. Konon la ada la jgk sikit. Dalam 10%?? Hee.. Huu.. Adoyai.. Ok mood please datang. Please please please i beg you. This morning my brother called and he said 'Kak Far! Ada anak kucing baru' and I was like not again... Bukan serik tapi takut sedih lagi.

Before raya ada these two kittens kat belakang rumah. Jumpa on a different day. Nama mereka Kecik & Bulat. Dua2 sudah tiada :'\ Bermula pertemuan bersama Kecik di belakang rumah, dalam longkang, right before sebelum nak buka puasa. Kesian Kecik... basah dan kesejukan. Cute face dia dan bunyi bising leads to a rescue mission. Bulat pula, duduk sendirian sambil meng-eooww pada pukul 7 pagi. Kes yang sama... muka yang comel dan bunyi bising menyebabkan kami selamatkan dia. Letak diorang sekali dalam satu box. And then we were like aaawww... adik beradik because both pun same color. Sampai sekarang tak tahu jantan ke betina. Macam too small to tell. Lolz. Kitorang ada jugak letak kat belakang rumah mana la tau mak dia datang kutip tapi kucing-kucing kat belakang tu sekor pun tak nak mengaku anak. Sheesh...

Tak tahu kenapa sayang sangat kat dua2 ekor ni. Bila pkir pemergian diorang ni boleh rasa sebak yang teramat sangat dan tidak impossible boleh menitiskan air mata. Mungkin jumpa time raya agaknya. Pemeriah suasana la katakan. Bawa balik Alor Staq tau diorg ni... haaa.. hebat tak? Kecik2 dah travel. Mungkin juga saya rasa mereka ni ada harapan untuk besar dan jadi a part of the family (they already did). Mama and abah sangat supportive. Mama siap suruh beli bottle. And they also take turn susukan the kittens. They said mcm ada anak kecik pulak. So yeah, I really want a future with the cute little kittens. Tapi apa kan daya, Allah lebih mencintai mereka. :'\

Mula2 Bulat mati dulu. Lepas tu Kecik. Tak tahu apa sebabnya. Mungkin demam kot. Memang menangis gila dan murung je hari Kecik pegi tu. I was thinking what went wrong, did I hurt them in any way and I fikir that I can't see them ever again and tak dapat tengok diorang membesar. :'\ It's very hard for me to deal with the loss and it takes sometime for me to let them go. Now ada anak kucing baru pulak. Abah jumpa dekat tgh jalan waktu nak balik ke rumah from masjid. Nasib baik tak terlanggar... ambil la bawa balik rumah. Dan hati saya meraung 'kenapa..???' hahaha.. over. Ish tak baik betul, rasa macam menyalahkan takdir pula. Astaghfirullah. So yeah, kucing baru ni warna jingga,lupa namanya apa.. Liana dah bagi nama dah. Tapi matanya tak bukak and dia tak meow sgt. Kalau eoow pun pelan je bunyi. Katanya abah nak bawa pegi vet. Hopefully everything goes well. Kucing baru ni besar sikit dari Kecik & Bulat so dah boleh bg biskut la kot. Tak kecik sangat so tak perlu la risau sangat nak bagi makan apa.. ye tak?

Esok baru nak balik rumah nak jumpa si oren. hee...

Itu saja for this post. See you in the next post.

Comel kan? Kecik

Yin and Yang. Kan dah kata adik beradik

Playing outside di Alor Star.

Dah pandai keluar box :')

Ada video lagi... Mana tak sedih.